late i know...so i'll just say "i hope everyone had a great christmas!"

i'm officially a 20 year old ; /

got lots of texts and stuff....thanks guys for remembering! i love you all.

home in san diego now.
had some good mexican food.
shopped a little.
took excel photos with my sister and brothers to give to our parents for christmas. i really didnt like those girls that worked there.
been irritated by everything....dont know why??

peace out berkeley...SD here i come! can't wait to taste some good ol' REAL mexican food! ; >

feels good and weird at the same time...i feel like i have to be studying or reading. whatever.

so far its been fuuuuuuuuun! right after my last final on friday, roel took me, madel, sherlyn, and val to valley fair, a mall in san jose, to go shopping. i was waaay too tired to shop. the only thing i bought was food : / plus that mall is freakin HUGE. afterwards he took us to his high school and then we chilled at inn n out for awhile in union city. great stuff ; >

saturday i drove roel's car for the first time....i seriously was shaking and my heart was beating. his lexus is his "girlfriend" and i was NOT about to fck that up. took me forever to parallel park. haha..all i had to do was drop him off and pick him up from his final thats like 2 minutes away. afterwards we headed to emeryville to chill. madel and sherlyn stayed in to do work so it was just us two. it was cool...we had a date ;> we ate at california pizaa kitchen for the first time and it was darn good! then shopped a little for his parents. later that night he went home and i went with norwin, norman, val, madel, sherlyn, and christina to bindlestiff. it's a little studio that filipinos run and put on shows in SF. then we norwin to took us to golden gate park where this haunted lake is. i was FCKN SCARED. seriously....its past midnight and we're in a dark, forest, lake place where none of us knew where we were going. the roads were freakin scary too. and theyre little dumbasses got out of the van to take pictures. all i kept saying was..."norwin please keep driving"! geezus..i was all over madel in the back screaming. NEVER was i soo scared. but ill admit it was fun too...

first semester, 2nd year....


THE END ; >

FINAL HELL WEEK:

WED:
12:30-3:30-Math
5-8-Chemistry

THURS:
12:30-3:30-Anthropology

FRI:
12:30-3:30-Psychology

then i'm freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ;D

NO MORE SCHOOL!!

finally, the semester is over! time to set in for finals...forreal..hardcore cause i got math and chem on the same day...so regardless of all the things goin on this weekend, i gotta bust a hermit ; >

roel is the sweetest....for our anniversary he gave me a notebook of 100 letters that he wrote each day leading up to our 7 months...how sweet is that? soo cuuute ; > gotta love that guy!

Happy birthday Susan!

oh yea...i have two eyes again! gosh im soo happy...that was the worst feeling ever! people staring at you...how sad : / its still a little chinky and pink but at least i can see ; >

tonight we're gonna watch HONEY with roel, madel, and sherlyn? and whoever else. roel claims thats his wife...yea him and every other guy on the planet! she is HOT though...i think it will be good.

well yea...hmm...good luck to everyone on finals...its almost over guys!!

update on my life...

Thanksgiving break was great!! seriously...i needed that time at home to refresh myself. spent most of the time with the fam...good times. my nephews are the cutest!! shopped a little...got a new cell phone!! yaay...so im with AT&T now and have the new SIEMANS M56..same number cause of that new law. only thing is that all my calls are still directed to my old phone...booo! anyways...so i didnt chill with anyone this break..i didnt mind though cause i know i'll be back in 3 weeks. funny thing is that the only two people i ran into in SD was my roomates sherlyn and madel....haha..how ironic! so i left hella early sunday morning cause my flight was at 9. and for the first time i was there before sherlyn! yaay..improvement on my traveling skills. so we leave sunny, WARM san diego and get back to rainy/cold nor cal...good thing roel's parents picked us up cause public transportaion would have been a bitch! so we got back and unpacked our loads and loads of food and chilled before we got back to the reality of school. it was Mari's bday that day too...so yea, kinda late on the blog but...HAPPY BDAY MARI! ;p

so this is the last week of classes before finals...waahooo! and there's even gonna be a GSI strike..i kinda hope it pulls through cause then our anthro final is gonna be cancelled ; > one less thing to study for!!

TODAY.. i woke up with a FAT SWOLLEN EYE and a HUGE BITE on my arm...fCKN BUGS! i feel like a monster. i cant even open up my right eye : / oh...and my teeth hurt cause of the ortho yesterday...i hate that feeling! later on i'm goin to the WARRIOR game with roel and his bro and new sis in law...kinda excited cause basketball games are fun to watch. but i have maad studying to do later...grrr...

oh yea, its 7 months today ; >

it was the funnest weekend all semester:

friday was sherlyn, mari, and val's bday bash...crazy stuff. im glad everything fell through even if there were probs here in there. props to them for planning it, especially madel. so it was fun...we had madori sours ; > but ya'll know me, a few mixed drinks here and there is all i can take these days. haha...its ok, alcohol stinks and makes me wanna barf. i cooked the chicken, fixed the girl's hair, and was the designated driver for the night...yaay! fun stuff for me! haha...too bad madel, sherlyn, and val were HELLA hung over the next morning. haha...throw up galore. sherlyn's sister drove up from irvine and surprised her so that was cool. highlight of the night...sherlyn downing that sapphire (yuck)

saturday we went to SF...sherlyn and her sister left early so roel and i just took the bart to meet them there. madel couldnt go cause she felt sick....i wish she did though! anyways...so it was just roel and i chillen at pier 39 while the others went driving around. it was soo much fun though..lots to see and to do. we watched seals, went into almost every store, and walked down fisherman's warf. glad it was a beautiful day! we could have one $120 from this one guy who was doing that card thing where you have to find a certain card after he moved them around. it was soo easy and people were placing bets up to $200...this guy was an idiot and lost $300...he looked like he didnt care though, rich ass mofo! roel and i didnt have enough for the starting bid of $100 though...maan, im soo goin back there! SF street acts are soo cool! then we met up with sherlyn and her sister for dinner with their friend from SF. then they took us around and we got to see the full house house that they show in the beginning and robbin williams house!! and we even saw him through the window inside! craaaazy...haha talk about stalkers. the lights were on so we looked...no harm in that ; > it was soo pretty in that neighborhood...i would live there if i had money. then we came home and i knocked out.

sunday was FED (filipino empowerment day)...our high school conference. it was a great turnout. that night at church we saw James from road rules! haha...hella passed by him...i could have bumped into him on purpose ; >

anways...this is too long. i seriously ahd fun though....after that math midterm and anthro research paper, i think it was well deserved! im goin home on wednesday.....cant wait!!

oh yea, next person to see around berkeley is Johnny Mosely....he's in my friend's class....he's gonna be a tough one though

daang, did i forget to mention the only bad part of the night? this girl had the same dress...different color. mine was better. see...thats why i hate forever 21! it was my last resort and i had no chioce. not funny guys. they kept laughing at me and even talked to the otehr girl. how mean! talk about total embarrassment!

im in a good mood cause i did waaay better than i thought on my chem midterm. i swear i teared cause i thought i failed it..yeeeees, im soo happy!! ; >

anyways...weekend was fuuun! it was roy and yvonne's wedding on saturday (roel's brother)...here are the highlights:

-ian and labib picking me up later than expected and walking in the church just in time before the procession....great timing!
-roy's surprise speech..."i dont know when, i dont know how, but i knew i wanted to marry you." tear jerker
-roel's parents calling me over to meet the WHOLE family. haha...funny. "next daughter?" puh-lease...im too young ;p
-mike freakin interogating me about EVERYTHING
-labib taking us all around walnut creek just cause he wanted to drive roel's car longer
-yummy appetizers!! who would have thought coconut and shrimp would have been soo good?
-roel's best man speech...great job!
-the bread rolls ; >
-the video montage...and i was even on it, yay!
-shawn drinking like crazy and then throwing all of it up
-madori sour (sp?)...best tasting alcohol
-labib and mike dancing with all the aunties
-roy calling me out on the mic and then dragging me from the table to do the bouqet toss. then roel saying, "thank God you didnt catch that" haha...no shit
-labib catching the garter and winning 100 bucks
-the hotel room auntie and uncle got us..embassy suites was hella nice
-the king size bed we tried to fit 5 people on for fun...haha.
-them opening the door while mike was in the shower

ok, im lazy now. but it was fun...especially meeting the family and hanging out and getting to know more of roel's friends. theyre funny. alright....that is it. after this week is over im done with midterms, papers...and all of that nonsense shit!

who wants to ditch school forever with me?

.idiot.

GRRRRRRR

i just feel like blogging...its been awhile since i blogged late at night about my feelings and shit...and since im home alone right now, its as good a time as ever...

so life has been good and bad this semester. school is freakin tough. really though....can i ever see an "A" on my transcript again?! berkeley is tough shit. sometimes i wonder how it would be if i had gone to UCSD instead..would i be getting better grades? would i have been able to grow as much as i did in berkeley? i really dont know...but walking through campus i always think to myself..."damn im one lucky girl" seriously... i still cant believe i go to berkeley, the number one public instituion. and even if it is hard as fck....in the end at least i can say "i did it"...just to see my parents face when i recieve that diploma will be worth all the shit im going through with school. yea, maybe i DONT get top notch grades like i did in high school, but this is berkeley. everything is a million times more competitive. as long as i know i worked my hardest, i know i'll be fine....YES, i will be. i can't believe how much ive grown emotionally...relationships flourished in my life with family, friends, and now roel. all i can do is thank GOD for blessing me with such great people. sometimes i gotta take a step back and remind myself of it. slowly im discovering myself...and i find that i'm NOT as strong as i thought i was. crying cause i dont know what classes to take? whoa...what kind of shit is that? i'm so lost....i really am. what i am learning is to lean on the people around me....realizing that i dont have to do everything on my own. knowing my limits and when to set my pride aside...thats probably the hardest thing i could ever do. you know what though? one thing i am missing right now is relaxation. its so hard for me to just sit and watch a full show on tv these days...its kinda sad. most of my free time is spent sleeping. how i get through the days...?? cause of roel...he really is my motivation. even though we can have our little times when we get irritated by each other, nothing ever goes further than a few minutes. and even if it may seem biased to say that i think we make a good couple, i really do think so. for one thing, we dont hold each other back from anything...better yet, we push each other forward. we do things for each other because we want to, not because we feel like we have to. we know how to give each other space and let each other be. he doesnt always have to be by my side and i dont always have to be his side. all my life i wanted a guy who could make me laugh, who had ambition, who was close to his family, sweet, caring, handsome...and i promise you that roel has all of that. ok, i'll stop now. this is too long and you guys probably dont care to hear about my love life. just one last thing....i am really content with my life right now...even if school bugs.

so many birthdays...

my little brother darius is 12 (nov. 6)...dang, all grown up already! i miss that chubbster...who i hear is skinny now : /

uh oh...and the roomie sherlyn! happy birthday!! i can't belive i took that shot with you...but it was fun! hope you enjoyed your day cause you deserve it! ; >

(im soo clumsy! : / sorry roel)

<3 6 months <3

i got him a build-a-bear...its wearing a t-shirt that says "happy anniBEARsary" and is holding a heart pillow. didn't know they had anniversary ones. its cute. and i also got him this cute card...he got me this big Nala doll. its cute. it perfectly sits on my bed. we had dinner and crepes....my new crave! strawberries are the best!...and so is roel ; >

question...key word of this entry is??

CUTE! haha..sorry that was gay. i just realized how much i said that word in this entry. stuuuuuuuupiiiiiid!

haha...thanks madel for the comment...i actually remembered when i went to sleep but didnt wanna get up. i was hoping you wouldnt read t his til later...but anyways, here goes story of getting in trouble #8:

roel and i were innocently studying last night in the solarium, which is a lounge type deal on the roof of our aparment building..(and hella nice i might add)....til alomost midnight. in the meantime madel and sherlyn were studying in the apartment while watching the security cameras on tv...cause we have access to the channel (cool stuff, i know). anyways...so as we were headed back and i opened the door, i see that its dark and no one was in there. how sad, i was worried about where they went :/ ....and then all of a sudden....BOOM! they pop out of the bathroom and i screamed like a biatch. little did we know that the windows were open, thus letting my scream echo throughout the hallways...and the hallways pick up EVERYTHING! so while they were crackin their little asses up at me forever and a day...we hear it, KNOCK KNOCK...then of course the laughter silences and we all look at each other doing the, "you go answer it look". haha...sherlyn and madel got the door, said sorry to the old lady from next door. and there you have it! and to think they tried to blame it on me for screaming?! yea freakin right....and they know that their gonna get it soon enough...could be tonight, tomorrow....move out day? who knows..........

i realized that the only thing i ever blog about these days are my weekends. haha...cause i guess other than that my life is just school. anyways...sooooo....halloween was alright for me. i just finished my psych midterm so i was ready to have fun. roel and i got matching costumes...yup, a cave man and cave women with cheetah print. hahaa..he actually wore it! i thought it was cute....and just a little sidenote, im NOT in love with cheetah print. its just funny that i have a cheetah blanket, slippers, and pillow...haha. really though, i don't! it just kinda stuck with me. anyways..it was freakin cold that day! weird ass berkeley weather cause it was scorching earlier in the week. we headed over to tricia's party and stayed there til like 1:30 cause of course it got broken up. it was cool though cause i was tired and we freakin walked across berkeley just to get home cause the bus was too slow. today (saturday) i studied with roel at heller lounge til he went to his midterm review...then madel and i spontaneously went to SF...spontaneous times are always good times! i swear everyone and their momma's were there. we shopped a little...couldnt find shit. i need a dress for roel's brother's wedding...in 2 weeks! and i got more midterms coming up too...plus a research paper : / boo to that. thanks madel for the fun day! i like it when we catch up like that ; >

monday, november 3rd, is 6 months...already?! im soo happy...

alright folks...goodnight. leave a comment or something to make me smile!

FRIENSHIP GAMES WEEKEND

the long awaited weekend...so we left berkeley around 4:30...picked up start and off we were. i rode with mari, jay, start, and johnny. the whole time we chopped it up...talking about anything and everything. it was a fast trip...and very cool! we stopped at inn n out to eat and that mug was packed. finally got to the hotel around 1:30 and it was foggy as hell. slept at around 3:30 cause we all took showers and stuff that night....plus i couldnt sleep. so yea...we were suppose to meet up in the lobby at 4:30, but thats when everyone woke up. so i pretty much ran the day on one hour of sleep. we got to friendship games all hyped up...but i dont know, it wasnt as fun in the beginning. we watched roll coll dances. i didnt perform cause i didnt know the dance, but it was cute. once the games got started it was hella fun. i played conveyer belt and got soo dirty and scratched up...last place but i had fun! it was great seeing everyone. nate's a dork....he called out my name from across the field on the mega phone...haha. everyone was like, "do you know that guy? he just called your name"...hah, i felt all special. the whole day was pretty cool...just the atmosphere of everyone. but the air was horrible...ashes everywhere...got back to the hotel around 6:30...showered and then went out with jay, mari, norwin, and chris to eat at this mexican place...not as good as SD but better than norcal. then we walked around downtown disney for a bit...fun fun stuff. got back to the hotel again around 10:30 to chill with everyone. but i slept...haha...i was knocked out. didnt even know there was people in my room. kinda wished i stayed up. next morning we ate breakfast at a kickass mcdonalds with an arcade and off on the road by 11:30...got back at 5:30....good timing.

fires are terrible...so many people i know had to evacuate their houses. all i can do is pray that everyone is gonna be ok...and im sure they will be.

whats up with the heat in berkeley?

midterm on friday...geez, it NEVER ends!!

im writing this now cause i know i wont have time later...

FRIENDSHIP GAMES BABY!! :D

its the revenge of the nerds....watch out now!

im so excited....so very very excited!

we're leaving at 4 and i still have to finish my paper...

i survived midterms round 2...well actually one more to go for psych on halloween...how did i do? well, chem was good, anthro...hopefully went well. i hate writing essays for midterms. i feel too rushed...and math sucked. we'll see though when i get the results. so after that horrid week of studying every night til late and waking up early to study some more..for one midterm after another..i had a pretty CHILL weekend. well kinda...friday was kinda bad. went to roel's friends party...i had NO alcoholic drinks whatsoever...roel though...was pretty bad. enough said. satuday was the friendship games picnic where we learned the cheers and roll call dance...fun stuff. i'm soo excited! kinda sad roel can't make it cause of his brother's bachelor party...its ok though cause i know he'll have more fun with his bro. then after the fun filled day in the sun roel and i had our weekly dinner together. we ate at a thai restaurant (he paid) and i bought us some mondo gelatto after. we rented a movie but i was too tired to watch it. though we did watch "not another teen movie" on HBO since we both haven't seen it...i like it when we just chill like that. it seems like we're always together to everyone, but it really doesnt feel like it cause when we are together we're both usually studying and doing homework. so the weekends are our quality time spent together...i'm soo lucky to be with him ; >

can't wait til friendship games!!

3 midterms this week...let the cycle begin....OR just kill me now

berkeley makes school hard and makes ME feel stupid......tough shit!! : /

song that makes me feel better: my saving grace. mariah carey

TEXAS CHAINSAW MASSACRE is scaaaary!

tired of reading...

im currently getting over a cold...the worst has left me and now i can breath. for a good 4-5 days my voiced changed. i liked it....haha. i wish it would stay. but oh well...til the next cold. its been fun lately...friday was 5 months for me and roel....wonderful! we watched theater rice (comedy/improv show) that night with everyone then went with mari to san leandro to drop of her van, while picking up roel's car in hayward from his brother so we can drive back to berkeley. he bought us jack in the box....what a sweetheart. too bad i couldn't taste it cause of my cold. saturday i drove back to union city with roel for his brother's wedding party lunch thing at old spaghetti factory. it wasn't all that great. i make better spaghetti! then we went shopping...my first time in months! sad thing is that there wasn't much to buy. but i did get stuff from hollister (of course!) and finally some pumas cause they were on sale. (wow! jenn with shoes?! amaazing!) and roel bought me a sweater from hollister too...thanks sweetheart! and i got him a flannel from american eagle...he bought more than i did..whats wrong with that picture?! oh well..next time when there's more stuff....or actually stuff my size! i got him his first wetzel pretzel and he got me my first coldstone. wow. dang this is a pretty dull entry. haha....sorry for ya cause i know youre still reading! so we chilled for a bit at his house with his bro and his fiance and her cousins...then roel's parents drove us back to berkeley....now its sunday and i have MAD reading to do....soooo....peace out!!

dang im kinda late, but oh well! here's what happened last weekend....

midterms are over! well for round 1 at least...2 weeks til round 2 (boo)....so friday i went to the giants game with roel, his brother, his brother's fiance' and their friends. it was cold...but at least the giants won...i guess, haha! even saw bonds himself hit a homerun..goodstuff. so we got back to roel's house around 11:30 and decided to get some starbucks...called up my roomate mari since she was home in san leandro, to meet us up in union city but she was actually already there. haha...roomates cant get enough of each other. so we chilled at tapioca express for a long while. then got back to the house around 1:30 and stayed up til 3 in the morning playing with roel's brother's god-daughter. she's the cutest, smartest, little thing on earth! not the usual two year old i might add...haha...quite adorable! that was fun til her parents picked her up. then we went to sleep. funny thing is i felt like i was gonna get in trouble by my parents for sleeping over...but i had no choice and his mom was the one who told us to sleep in his room....how weird! it did still feel awkward though. so we went home the next day with marc and mari cause they picked us up. saturday night we went to jaymi's surprise party...good stuff casue i hardly see anyone these days. then off to the infamous bowles dorm for a party....i swear, some berkeley folks canNOT dance! its sad...oh well, spent most of the time in roel's friend's dorm cause they all live there again. (they're all cute too ; >) then the police came at 1...sucks cause people were just arriving. but i can't imagine being at that party without having roel and his hookups...it would have been boring. so yea...there goes my weekend. picked up madel at the airport sunday night cause she went home for the weekend...and.....that's it! i wish i could blog more. does anyone read this besides madel? hahahahah

bad bad way to start the week off...

sunday night was hot as fck so i slept with the window open and no blanket and woke up with 7 mother freakin bug bites! wtf?! one on each ankle, one HUGE swollen one on my elbow, another HUGE swollen one on my wrist, TWO on my right hand on the same knuckle (this one hurts the most...especially when i move it, so i can't write right) and one fat one on my freakin eye. and these aren't youre regular meesly bug bites...im talkin bug bites pilipino style..ya know that fat ones that you get in PI. fckin sucks! i feel like a monster. plus i have two midterms to study for..oh yea, did i mention the wire on my the roof of my mouth came out when i was eating so now i have to make it all the way to the ortho again? fcck...im so irritated!

chem midterm was terrible....

QUESTION:...if im not good in english....and im not good in math/science (well not anymore at least)...then what am i good at?! somebody pleeeeease tell me! i need help....college is going by too quickly and i need a major : /

the rest of the week was chill...all that chem wore me out...wednesday we watched the free screening of fighting temptataions. it was alirght...not as good as i thought...thursday...ate out with marc, mari, and roel at tako sushi...then off to esther's "surprise bday party"....earl slipped. that was cool seeing my old floormates...then we got boba. missed the bus everytime that day cause of marc...he's cursed. friday...watched small voices....an independant pilipino film...i highly recommend it guys! so look out for it, i dont know if its gonna show all over though. but yea....it was in tagolog and portrays the hardships of life in the Philippines...it was very sad, enlightening, and kinda hits home (well more to our parents)....it gives you hope and makes you realize what good a life we live and how lucky we are growing up in America...then everyone went their seperate ways..mari went home with marc to san leandro, madel and sherlyn visited jaymi in vallejo ( i have a lot of studying to do so i stayed home), and roel went home to union city/HAYWARD for a wedding. so i was home alone, at night, for the first time....imaginations were not at their best : /

so upcoming for this week...two midterms! i hate reading ; / then afterwards im free as a bird til midterms round 2.

i feel like all i do is study these days...i hardly go out and have time to relax. sucks...i'm not even around the pilipino community anymore and it kinda gets me sad. SIGH....school is overwhelming

the stress and anxiety of the midterm cylce is back....you study your ass off, take the fckN exam, then get the grade and cry, wondering what the hell am i doin at berkeley?! argh....wtf dude? its like no matter how hard i freakin study...things dont get through my brain. i promise all of you guys that something happend to my brain the summer of the transition from high school to college. i dont know what it is exactly....but something happened. i swear.

warning: im feeling stressed, inconfident, down, AND i'm PMS-ing

chem makes me want to cry. i need to learn how to retain myself.

-first chem midterm on tuesday 6-8pm....scared as fck : / maaad studying to do this weekend (with the exception of the PAA party and NO drinks saturday night)

-missed out on marine world with roel and jelly's party last night....booooooooo

-i got dark...ugliness

-school is tiring....VERY tiring.

-missing the fam....

-living is so expensive...its sad

surprise surpirse... (this is gonna be a long one!)

so many surprises in this past week...its so crazy! the first one was for madel's birthday on september 1st...maan we hella got her! at the stroke of midnight we all greeted her and then made a little wager...for every hour she was awake she was to take a shot of bacardi..haha..some roomates we are! and in exchange i would do her homework. so she was up til like 4 in the morn doin her shots while i was at roel's baking her fave cake..pineapple upside down. then early in the morning we got up to cook some brunch and decorated the apartment with some "happy fucking birthday" decor we found at urban..it was hella cool. then when she least expected it....everyone storms through the door and yells SURPIRSE! fck yea...we got that little punk finally! kudos to me, sherlyn, and mari for pullin it off! and of course to roel for helping us out.... then later that night we headed to San Francisco to eat at hooters....its the first one in the bay area. so that was fun...then surpirse #2 for her cause we invited alumni brian cadiz to join us...we knew she would love that! and then of course we had to tell the waitresses that it was her bday so she had to get up on a stool while we all sang to her. good stuff madel...you deserve it!

that night was crazy for me...on the way home some crazy ass drunk indian talked to me on the bus the whole freakin ride...thank GOD roel was next to me. he was pretty scary, saying stuff like "im gonna get in trouble cause im 36"...wtf?! other stuff he said was pretty sweet though...like tellin roel to take care of me and telling us how special love is and all that...afterwards everyone was like "OMG jenn are you ok?!" haha...i was bout to die talkin to that indian. well i guess thats the city and public transportation for ya!

then came MY SURPRISE! on wednesday, september 3rd was roel and i's 4 month anniversary...and this one is suppose to be special cause its our first one actually being together since we were away from each other in the summer. but i didnt expect much since it was a school night and we both had a lot of homework. so all we did was go to the PASS meeting and ate out afterwards at Tako Sushi with marc and mari. that was hella fun and good enough for me....i figured we would do something on the weekend. so on the way home roel went back to his place to "pick up books" to study at my place. but when he got here madel asked for the "cd" she asked him to burn. so roel had to go back and i just went along with him cause i felt bad. so when we got to his apartment he opens the door and says "happy anniversary"...and when i walked in, his WHOLE room was lit with red scented candles and there were scented rose petals everywhere with our pictures nicely displayed....but that aint it cause he even had his parents go to baskin robins to get a cake with our picture on it. it was soo sweet....everything was perfect! the way he set it up and planned everything out...i didnt know what to say. i couldnt stop smiling...im mean, come on now, these are the things you read in fckin YM magazine! and apparently he' s been planning this since the summer. madel and sherlyn helped set it up too...good job guys! i was hella surprised....thanks roel for being YOU! i dont think things can't get better than me and roel....i hella love that guy!

oh yea...roel hit one candle and wax spilled on the wall and carpet so we had to clean it up....then when we were blowing them out he blew a little too hard and the wax splattered every where....HAHAHA...it reminded us of our first date when he got salsa in his eye....that's my babe for ya!

first week of school...

eh...its more work definetly. i have four classes....chem 1A (i know, im late. its only now do i decide i MAY wanna go to med school), math, psych 2 (so far my fave cause ive always been interested in psychology. too bad i cant major in it), and anthro 3 (not so bad...just a lot of reading) so thats that....the only wack thing about this semester is that my classes are on total opposite sides of each other. i swear imma lose so much weight walking to each class. oh yea, and my hour breaks suck. there's nothing to do. i miss goin home between classes to eat and whatever. i feel like a commuter cause i stay on campus all day til my classes are over and i hesistate on buying food to eat...so what do i do? STUDY! yaay...its actually a good thing. i get more done. hmm..i still get to see roel all the time so thats a good thing. he's the best...walkin me to my classes and even sitting in some of my lectures. haha...im so spoiled. i also ride the buses more..i hate buses. 2nd year is weird..its like im not interested in partying or goin out anymore. i guess all of that was just freshman hype. its all good though...too much fun is not good. i also am not online a lot anymore...i guess im growing up? haha, i dont know.

the apartment is still goin good...i love my T1 connection..its so great. too bad we have to be quiet a lot. but we have two new roomates...marc (mari's b/f) and roel...hahhaha...its funny. all four of us in one room and all we do is cap on each other....gotta love it! oh yea...did i forget to mention that our tv is in eastern time cause its satellite? haha..so we got to see the VMAs before anyone did.

norwin, chris, norman, and marc had their housewarming party on friday...they're so lucky cause they can be as loud as they want and not get in trouble by the manager. i swear there were so many people on the balcony and playing hella loud music til like 3 in the morning and not one single complaint...WOW!

ok..im lazy now...my updates are like once a week now...its kinda sad. til next time...farewell

its been hot in berkeley...good thing

im getting a sty in my left eye...BAD thing

it's been awhile and a lot has happened....here's a summary

-left friday for fresno to visit my uncle in a van packed with 8 people and mad luggage
-saturday went to yosemite....saw some rocks and trees and big ones too!
-sunday headed to berkeley!...roel met the parents ; > my family stayed at the travis airforce base
-monday we got my stuff from the storage place and i took the fam around the campus. roel hung out with the fam again too ; >
-tuesday went out with my cousin from vallejo to SF....and got pulled over on the way home (hahaha...long ass funny story) my cousin got cited for 3 things....speeding at 79 mph (Bull shit!), following too close, and too many passengers. maan we got in trouble ; /
-wednesday we went to the jelly belly factory and napa valley (the wine country) then the family headed back to SD
-friday was our housewarming party...hella fun shit! roel got us some belvadere (sp?) ...thanks sweetheart! my roomates were fcked up..good thing i was sober enough to take care of them and everyone else. a lot of people came through. i even got to see drea for a little bit
-saturday...went to union city with roel to see his friend's band called nexus...then it was his housewarming with all his high school friends. we watched a tape they had from their high school days....and i saw him and his ex's....dun dun duuuuuuuuun...

so far things have been great! i love my roomates and our apartment...hella IKEAtized! i love it! it makes me wanna stay home. the gaia is the best....even though its small, its practically the newest apartment building in berkeley so its hella nice. oh yea....bad note...we got in trouble HELLA times already...the neighbors complained about the noise even when it was just us here and then at the party the manager was pissed. he said if we get another complaint he was gonna write us up, wtf?!!....booo to that! oh well...what can you do....tell the old lady next to us to move out of the college area bitch!

school starts tomorrow....fck! but im ready to kick ass this year..forreal.

sophomore year goal....decided a fckN major!

WHOA...its already my last week here in SD. weeeird i tell ya! i have all these feelings...i guess its finally hitting me that im not gonna be seeing my family again until thanksgiving. gets me all sad. little darius is beginning his bell bopper years....edwin has his all-male performances and stuff....dang, i hate thinking about my brothers growing up without me around. especially darius. lately ive been looking at him all surprised at how tall he's getting. i bet when i get back he'll be my height already. haha...then i'll really be the shortest of the family. oh gosh...i better stop this. im just gonna put myself in the homesick mode before i even leave.

anyways...hmm...maan, what the heck is wrong with me?! i think im just PMS'n. i hate the feeling when the tiniest thing will piss me off....then i get all grumpy and dont wanna talk to anyone. lately ive been feeling just hella mellow...argh...whatever. ill just go. peace.

yesterday was soo freakin tiring...

forreals now, NO MORE SHOPPING for me....HOLLISTER is EVIL.....i curse sales....SIGH

anyways...so after a long ass day of errands with the grandparents i went out with madel and sherlyn cause it was chris' last week in SD before he heads back up to berkeley. original plan was to watch freaky friday and eat at da kines...haha. (he was actually down to watch that with us)...but of of course we ran late on our plans and just decided to eat out at a nice place...BENNIGANS...since we were in the area. haha. we spent a good 2 hours there choppin it up and laughing our heads off. good times definetly. then we wanted to see where chris was staying at the base so we went up to his room. its pretty nice, like a hotel. they even have their daily cleaning ladies. haha. it was cool casue ryan devera was on his floor too. even though madel and sherlyn were tryin to look nice for the rotc boys...i didnt care cause I GOT A MAN! right roel? muhahahahah....

oh yea...i can't believe i went out to dinner with THEEEE madel angeles and sherlyn manzano. who would have ever thougth they'd invite little ol' me to dinner and actually be nice enough to be my roomates?!

countdown to berkeley....8 days ;>

i actually had fun this weekend...!

ruthie and jesse came over to visit friday night...that was cool cause i haven't seen her fat face in forever and a day. (haha...that's how we show our love). then saturday the whole fam had our check-up appointments at the dentist. i hate going to the dentist! pure torture, i swear. anyways...then later on that day i went with my sis and bros to the outlets in san ysidro. that was my first time there actually...haha. saw ruthie at work and she hooked up my bro with a discount at gap...$16 on pants...good shit. but maan, i saw some pants but were hesistant to buy them and when i went back today...they were gone :( i was soo sad. but oh well...saved myself some more money. oh yea...roel was drunk off his ass that night at a bachelor party...muahahahha! ;p he kept calling me...in a sad way it was kind of cute ; >

sunday was chill day with ruthie since she's leaving for jersey on tuesday and when she gets back i'll be gone. too bad people were lazy to come with us (ahem) haha..but its all good. we went to horton plaza cause ruthie gets her discount at gap there too...bought some pants ; > and cheap ass sandles at AE! it's all about smart shoppin! it was cool casue i ran into my best friends from elementary that i haven't seen in days...vanessa felicano and joelle tolledo...i was hella happy to see them. then off to urban outfitters where we coincidentally ran into jaimee (who claimed she was too lazy to shop with us and had no money) with her family. haha...its all good though cause heck id be shoppin with my mom too since she has the greens! later that day we met up with jaimee and susan and went to seaport to chill for a bit since i had to be home by 9 (yea i know, early!) its so pretty at night. i cant believe all the people that were there. brought back memories...(aww...) then they came over to my house to watch One hour photo...hella crazy/twisted movie.

after they left i talked to ROEL...yaay! it was our 3 months yesterday ; > he's really got to be one of the sweetest guys ever. i can't believe we got through the summer with barely seeing each other....thats gotta say somethin about us! he makes me soo happy...ahhhhh..i can't wait to see this fool....i leave next weekend! oh shit.....12 more days....

oh yea...i want a hermit crab from the mall. theyre soo pretty! im gonna get one for my pet in the apartment ;>

bored at home. fck i wanna go back to berkeley. my YOUNGER brother went out last night...leaving the house at 8:30 and coming home after 1...fck him. that bastard! would i be let out like that? dont think so. bull shit crap!!

anyways...its finally AUGUST! yaaaY! 16 more days til i leave. i called in for the electricity in our apartment and mari called in for our new apartment phone number....yaay! how exciting! mari is moving in aug. 5 since she's already up there. im jealous. ive been cooking alot lately...hope i can do that in our apartment! haha..

so i got an "A" in my humanities class...yaay! maan if only the freakin grade transferred. boo to that! or better yet if berkeley were that easy!! oh maan, wish!

guys that sell cell phones at the mall are annoying. i used to think that some of them were cute...but now....BLEH! it's like "get away!! i already have a damn fckn phone bitch" haha....damn that was harsh. but forreal though, this guy talked to me for like 15min...sure he was cute, but damn!

i miss roel : /

SUNDAY: good times! madel threw a bbq so i picked up sherlyn and then chris from the base and we headed over to madel's house. daamn...i havent seen madel and sherlyn since freakin berkeley! i was soo happy! ; > too bad that by the time we got there the girls from LB had to leave. but yea...it was hella fun chillen and laughing with them. i didnt realize how much fun i always have with them and how much i missed them. we're soo excited about goin back...forreal. just the thought of moving in our apartment brings a big ass smile to my face. i really can't wait! 3 more weeks and 2 more weekends in SD... (it makes me squeal with delight!) it's kinda sad cause sherlyn, chris, and i were kinda anti-social from madel's other friends. i felt bad...i mean, i went to high school with them but i never really got to know them...sucks...i just felt really awkward (sp?)

today was hella funny. my cousin came over and we all chipped in for some honey bbq wings from kfc. but when we got home and some of it were strips....and i was like "oh hell! we paid extra to have chicken on bones...how the heck are they gonna give us boneless chicken?!" so we called and they said that we could come back and get some more...fck yea! hahah....so we got 40 wings for the price of 20. good stuff....the highlight of my day!

frustration gets to me

summer school is over...now im bored as fck! i think im gonna die of boredom......take care guys.....

haha..ok enough of my drama.....maan its freakin boring to be at home. im gonna go blind from staring at this computer all day, not to mention from watching tv too.

where the heck is my comment thingy? geeez.........

thinking too much is BAD!

maan...im stupid.

why am i so lucky? it feels too good.

im sad i missed my brother's promotion....but afterschool we all went to VIP for lunch with the fam/relatives. maan...that fried sushi was soooooooo freakin yummy! i saw rommel there with his family too...haha, all these damn families from the promotion were there. i guess its the place to be. then i slept for days cause i was hella tired from the weekend. dude....grandparents are the best! my grandma gave me and all the bros/sis/cousins $100! straight up ballin! i started the day with ZERO dollars and ended up with a fat hundred bill...made my freakin summer!

...last week of summer school...
...4 more weeks til i go back to berkeley...

i feel like blogging...so here's a recap on the last few days....FRIDAY was my mom's birthday so we went out to eat and stuff with the family. she had a margarita and swore she was drunk off her ass....mothers are sooo dramatic! SATURDAY i couldnt go to long beach to meet up with the berkeley folks...but i did go to riverside with my sister. it was FUN. hella hot though...we went swimming and watched LXG because....yea. dont even know what was goin on. but yea...so we came got home by 12 noon today and i took a nap before starting my essay thats due tomorrow. not good stuff. tomorrow is also my brother's 6th grade promotion. i wish i could go but i have summer school...sucks : /

hmm....that's it i guess. actually i just got lazy. haha...alright peace out folks!

its been awhile...

hmmm....
-my grandparents came back from PI last weekend...good stuff. got some presents! haha..yea, my favorite is this tank top with big bird on it. im soo gonna rock that in berkeley! just watch... ;p
-chris ramiro (berkeley folk) is in SD for a month cause of rotc so i chilled with him yesterday. picked him up from the base and went to fashion valley and got some boba
-weather is unbelievably humid..its gross
-i guess the "one mahalers" are heading up to LB this weekend...dont know if i can go cause of my mom's bday...we'll see how it goes. i wanna go cause i havent seen the berkeley crew in forever..i miss them!

i think i can be too nice sometimes, especially to the wrong people.

my mom's gay...i asked here how long the family is gonna stay in berkeley and she says "ONE WEEK! so we can watch you" oh hell mother freakin' no!!....then she starts laughing. i dont think its funny. i already am restricted at home....all im tryin to do is have fun and NOT miss welcome week...fck that! i need to have fun!

good times...

happy birthday to my "sister" julius and "brother" earl! ;D

so yesterday was julius's surprise bday party...i guess he was surprised...haha, i dont know. but yea, fun times cause a lot of people came through and i got to see people i haven't seen in a while. susan dropped his ice cream cake that had his picture on it...muahaha...sike, ok, fine...we both dropped it cause i kinda backed into her when she was holding it. whatever...hmm...so life on the other hand is filled with school, family, and the phone...yup..

maan do i wanna go back to berkeley! argh...i wanna live in my apartment with my dope ass roomates and go out past 12...oh yes...the freedom! im soo excited to move in....mari got us a couch! yeeeeesss....one thing less to buy, good shit! alright...nonsense right now....boredom...it gets the best of everyone. thats why im writing this and youre reading it ;p sike, just joking! don't cry...i really appreciate you stopping by! ; > (oh shit, that rhymes! i miss thinking of haikus with shelryn : / )

Fourth of July

happy birthday America!! so yesterday wasnt too bad....went to my cousin's house for a barbecue...and some swimming (which i didnt do because i dont know how)...chilled forever and a day over there...then headed to my other cousin's house for another barbecue. we watched the fireworks over near swapmeet cause she lives near there. and yea...lots of fun with the FAM.

i got an A on my essay in humanities...wooopty dooo! maan i wish berkeley were like this : /

july 3rd....two months after may 3rd...and im still happy as ever! i keep thinking what a lucky girl i am to be with someone like roel...what did i do to deserve a person like him? i dont know...but im just glad how everything ended up...life is definetly full of surprises....who would have thought? certainly not me! i love how we can be soo far from each other yet it feels like he's with me everyday ;>

i miss him.

goodnight, starlight.the juliana theory.

what a crazy ass day! so..i went to school as ususal and got home hungry as fck. ruthie was online and we both were complaining about starving so i said lets go eat lunch....then a whole gang of folks went too...good shit...it started as a couple thing...ya know the usual with me as the single...hahah but then elaine didnt go so me and nate were the loners...yaay for me! so it was ruthie, jesse, jamie, earl, julius, susan, and me and nate...so yea we satisfied my craving for hooters...maan that shit was good. and happy hour was great! 25 cent wings? hell yes! we went all out! so we caught up on our lives as usual...always fun kickin it with them. and maan i found out some crazy ass shit today....WHEW...im shocked....all i can say is its YOUR bad!

and yesterday i went up to mission viejo with my family for an anniversary party...it was soo hot up there...but damn it was hella nice. i swear all the houses there are mansions. it was at a park type thing near the lake...fun stuff.

MY WEEKEND WITH ROEL...

what can i say? ive never been so happy in my life! even though things didnt work out as planned since i couldnt "pretend" to be at my sister's place in riverside, we still got to spend a lot of time together...more than i had expected actually...

he drove down wednesday night and got here early thursday morning. it was him, and his friends IAN and GINO, and they stayed at his friend ANGELI's apartment near state (cause she goes there). talk about a bumpy start though cause they weren't even out of the bay area when Gino's car got rear-ended in traffic....sucks big time cause his hood is fcked up now. but they still went on with the trip...and im glad.

THURSDAY: i was soo antsy and impatient in class waiting for school to end so i could see roel's ass...by the way i dropped philosophy cause the reading homework was too much to handle for each night along with humanities. anyways..once school got out, i headed over to state to see him...wow...after a freakin month of missing him he was actually right here in front of me...with me. still surreal to me. i took him and his friends to fashion valley to eat and then over to seaport village to chill and walk around. too bad the weather was wack. i had to be home by 5 so i dropped them off at the apartment and they did their own sight seeing at san ysidro and boomers. maan i hated that feeling of knowing roel was in SD and i couldnt be with him

FRIDAY: i went with my sister and cousin Patricia to downtown to do some errands at the VA office and then a little shopping at horton plaza. we met up with roel and them for lunch at Hooters which was cool cause he got to meet some of my family. then we all headed to beautiful La Jolla Shores. good thing the sun came out later that day and it was a GREAT day for the beach. that was soo much fun playing in the water. it was funny cause none of us were dressed for the beach. then afterwards i dropped off my sister and cousin...picked up karren, and with roel, headed to Eastlake for Ruthie's graduation. boring when you dont know anybody...and poor ruthie had to graduate by herself with a class she didnt even know. (long story) so yea..they had fireworks though. afterwards we went to ruthie's house real quick and then ate at lolitas (the new one) with jaime and jesse as well. and since it was grad night...of course ruthie wants to get fcked up. karren had a fake ID so we got some alcohol to bring to angeli's apartment so that roel's friends could drink too. too bad that by the time we got there i had to go home...yup, 12 midnight curfew! so they all had fun without me that night...i basically dropped off my friends...SUCKS BIG TIME! but im just glad roel got to know my friends and ian and gino had fun...of course they thought all my friends were hot, cause they are!

SATURDAY: woke up early to freakin rain! but we still went on with our plans to hit up the Del Mar Fair. luckily it was just cloudy in del mar...it was even humid. that was fun just walkin around and stuff...rode some rides...roel rode the ferris wheel for the first time...haha..it was a nice view....he even won me a dog...we left around 5 cause we were tired as hell...but we stopped by seaport again cause we wanted to get a caricature done...maan that was soo ugly! he gave me boobs i dont have and even put my braces and gave roel a thick mustache...wtf?! then we ended the night chillen in the apartment till i had to go home at 12. sad..sad...SAD moment...cause we knew we probably wouldnt see each other til i get back to berkeley....they left at 4 in the morning that night...glad they made it and got home safe.

so that was my weekend...soo much fun just seeing roel and hanging with his friends and him meeting my friends. hope they had fun. roel is the sweetest guy ever...even though things weren't lookin too good with the trip, he still made it happen. maan...im sad...i miss him...i wish it was thursday all over again... :*(

i forgot to add that over the weekend I CUT MY HAIR!! haha..man that shit was soo long! all the way down my lower back. but i dont really miss it as much as i thought i would. now its just above my armpit. and i think i wanna go shorter. i also dyed it brown cause my roots were just UUUUU-glay! but my highlights still kind of show...oh well...i needed a change. the end.

wow long time no blog! well here goes if you care whats goin on in JENN's LIFE...

friday i hit up MORSE's graduation which was pretty cool....got a little sentimental there. i felt soo old watching and thinking back, remincing how that was me on stage last year. wow...craziness! of course ran in to some morse alumni which was cool. afterwards i ate out with susan and her family. saturday i went shoppin with the family. maan...that day my mom was HILARIOUS! gosh...i love that filipino fobby-ness. then we went to a family party and i played with my cousins and neices. Sunday was FATHER's Day so of course i chilled with the family. we got him a shirt from Tommy Bahamas...never heard of that brand but its pretty expensive. then we ate at Dave and Busters. that was hella fun shit. i love that place...too much fun i tell ya! then that night the Obaña cousin clan got together before my cousin marie headed back to NYC. that was hella cool cause we were ALL there...we were chillen, catching up on our lives, playing with the youngins...had a little family drama session. maan, i swear i love my cousins, theyre like my best friends who i know i can always count on. MONDAY was the first day of school at GROSSMONT. im takin humanities and philosophy and go from 9:35-2:30 straight with a 20 minute break. its kinda hard cause i have waaay too much reading. but oh well, it will keep me busy. i ran into encia which was cool cause i havent seen this chick since graduation. also roel's mom got into an accident...a car getting chased by the police hit her. talk about wrong place at the wrong time. thank God she's ok. but the monterro got fcked....so i figured roel wasnt comin anymore...but he called today and said he was since his friend offered to drive...yaaay roel is coming!! ; >

so that's that....take care ya'll til my next entry. school's got me busy so my entries will probably lessen

today was my grandpa's birthday so i had a little family time...we all had dinner at my cousin's house which was pretty fun. i was practically the oldest one there since everyone else still had school. but i made it fun...we played stupid games and trivia...hahah its funny how i get all the kids excited. my grandpa was talkin about a lot of stuff that made me proud of my family...how all the kids are soo smart and successful. we're all pretty much over-acheivers which is sooo great. he was giving all of us advice..."no one can take your education away, its yours and yours only." which i think is soo true...good thing to keep you motivated

hmm...let me think about this weekend...SATURDAY went to plaza real quick and then hung out at ruthie's house with jaime, susan, earl, and fred...started watching "catch me if you can" but i didnt get to finish it caues i had to go home by 11..waaaaaack-ness!! then SUNDAY...went to comissary for my sister real quick. then headed to my cousin's house to see my grandparents who just came from PI....chopped it up a bit with my cousins who i haven't seen in a while..then took the longest nap of my life 3:30-7...craaaazy! when i woke up my cousins were callin me cause the whole family was there...but yea, my dumbass was knocked out...its all good...this weekend ill get to see everyone fosho.

this time next week...i'll be in summer school.......BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

summer sucks.........booooooooooo! i wanna go back to berkeley! freedom...freeeeeeeeeeeeedom...i miss it!

roel is too cute..he emailed me just to say "i miss you baby" awww....sweetest of the sweet i tell ya! ; > two more weeks til he comes down...yeeeeeeeeeees! can't wait!

~OHANA~
it was definetly a family weekend...saturday i was suppose to go to the MTV Movie Awards...buuuuuuuuuut NO...my dad wouldnt let my brother go so didnt feel right about goin since he did get in trouble for stickin up for me. yup...some sibling love fo ya! so we ended up goin to my mom's co-worker's party. turns out it's jay gener's mom. haha..ive known that fool since 1st grade. but since jr high and high school we kinda drifted and act like we dont know each other..kinda sad how that happens to people. well anyways..so yea, saw some folks from high school...even earl was there. haha...but i didnt really talk to them. just sat there with my brother watching the mothers dance and the fathers karaoke. of course my sole purpose for being there was for my mom to show off...i hate that!

sunday i went to comissary with my mom...hilarious! haha...afterwards i took my brothers and little cousins to watch Finding Nemo at Rancho San Diego. (or Little Nemo as i kept callin it accidentally) it was an "alright movie." there were soo many families and little kids...maan, i swear, it was crazy. we also bought a GRIP of snacks and candy from target...dude, i felt so sick from eating all of that! i had lots of fun embarrassing my cousins...haha...i was talking "whale" aloud......muahahhahaha! i know where nemo is!

yesterday i went to UTC with ruthie...damn...shopping AGAIN! of course the only reason we went there was to hit up hollister...weather sucked yesterday. afterwards we went to visit nate and got to see earl, fred, and elaine too. haven't seen those fools in forever and a day. then my dad calls at 9 30 askin where i was....geez....then the freakin drama fo yo mama starts...

i came home after my dad called...i hate that shit! 19 years old and i still have to be home before 12?! WTF?! arghhhhhhhhhhhh...i started complaining and crying askin why he always picks on me. then my brother tries to stick up for me and my dad just gives his whole BS excuse of wanting me to be a "decent girl." school first and shit like that...it's like, damn i know already! if i wasn't a decent girl would i be in berkeley right now? dont think so...do i look like the vulnerable type to let myself be taken advantage of? gosh..i have my own morals and values. it's not like i wanna mess up my life. i wanna graduate, i wanna get a job and be successful....and i just wanna have fun. i'm turning 20 in december and i can't help but think that ive missed out on my teen years cause i've been restricted so much. SUCKs....he raised me well and im grateful...but he needs to learn how to let go...i'm not the little girl he thinks i am anymore...im strong and independant. i wish my dad could see that...until then im a prisoner! >:o

so what's been up in SD? well....lets see...a bunch of NOTHING MUCH! haha...weather is good...definetly. even though the sun isnt out, its still hot. i've been to the malls alot too...i got new slippers ;> i also ran into john and cindy coincidentally at fashion, haha...had to happen sometime right? we just looked at each other...didnt even talk to john. its ok, whatever. things are better that way. other than that...im back to the usual driving my bros everywhere, cleaning, and running errands. sucks cause right now my sister has my car in riverside. booooooooo! like it matters cause my parents dont let me out...but they let my brother and sister out as they please with NO questions asked...what kind of shit is that?! argh...the one thing that pisses me off everyday...i dont get it. they dont want me to have fun or something... sucks for me! : / my dad said it's cause im more "precious" and he loves me more...can we say bull shit?!

hmm..what else? oh yea, of course the santa barbara trip this weekend didnt work out cause my sister has my car. roel isn't goin either so i didnt mind as much about not goin. then im suppose to head to pamona friday with madel for an xpo party...dont think that's gonna happen either cause on saturday i have to be somewhere...i'll talk about that later...

ahhh...it hasn't even been a full week and maan do i miss roel. he always makes the effort to call, even when he's out...makes my day ;> it's gonna be one tough summer

i miss my roomates and floormates too....i swear it still hasn't hit me that we're never goin back to SB-7 : /

last days in Berkeley
so i changed my flight to SATURDAY cause madel changed hers. thank God cause i soo wasn't ready to leave. anyways...THURSDAY we had a dinner with all the pilipino folks...we cooked all our leftover canned foods and stuff. spam and cornbeef, MmmmMMMm...then i started packing shit. maan that was tough. i got almost all my stuff done that night. i literally sat there and stared into nothing...i was fckN sad. FRIDAY i went with roel to pick up his car in union city. i got to meet a couple of his friends and they were hella cool and saw his mom again. then we headed back to berkeley to drop stuff at our storage..we only had enough time to bring madel and sherlyn's stuff...so yea, i had to wait til saturday morning for mine. that night was soo sad...ate out with my roomates lora and drea. and then Spen-Black 7th floor had our last good times together...we made our own slide show and stuff...me and drea made a tight ass frame with our floor's pics for Auechen to thank him for everything and got a pinata for the floor. everyone was drunk but i was sober since i had to wake up early. Saturday me and roel woke up at 7 so i could drop my stuff off at storage. then we got breakfast and i got ready to leave...maan...tough stuff. drea was hella holding me back cause she didnt want me to leave...haha, that was cute. i was kinda sad that lora wasnt there to see me off. it didnt feel like i wasnt gonna see these people anymore...then we picked up madel and headed to the airport around 11. maan, i have the worst luck with airports. i was one of the "special" people who had to go through the VERY random THOROUGH checks. f-that! roel is too sweet... he got me this cheetah bear thing (to match my slippers and blanket) and card. i felt bad cause i didnt get him anything. then we chilled til i had to leave....i read the card on the plane and got all sad...maan...freshman year was fckN great...i'll save that reflection for my next entry...its gonna be a long one...

thanks soo much roel for everything...the rides, helping us move, carrying our boxes...you hella sacrificed your time and i appreciate it soo much. i dont know what we would have done without you...youre the best!

it's freakin great having nothing to worry about!
Berkeley weather has been AMAZING this week..i wore skirts and tanks and shorts this whole week...craaaAAAzy! finally! sheesh...all of that was buried in my closet and i thought i would never get to use it. great way to leave Cal!

yesterday my cousin charlene came by to drop of some luggage for me...we had lunch with her friends and roel at the Thai House so that was pretty cool. they're hella funny. then we ran my errands and got some storage space. ahhh..! moving out is soo surreal...i dont wanna move out of the dorms! then roel and i headed to Berkeley Marina to chill for a bit. that was cool...we got back in time to watch American Idol. yaay for RUEBEN!

last night was fun...drea and i got soo drunk. SIGH...the morning after was BLEH! i was sooo dizzy...i haven't had a hang over like that in awhile...no more drinks! it reminded me why i dont like alcohol! sorry i missed out on the "girls night out" guys...hope it was fun : /

now really...i HAVE to pack! maan...im gonna miss everyone!

it's OVER!!

hell yes...freshman year is officially finished! its 8:30am and i just turned in my last final essay of the year and pulled my last asian am all nighter with drea...maan it felt fckN good after i turned that shit it! ;D then walkin back i kinda got sad...

time to pack it up...it's ironic how i was sad to leave SD and now im sad to leave berkeley :(

astro is OVER!! hell yes! gosh that final was wack...100 questions at 8am is NOT good...i haven't got up that early in years! i just got tired of reading for 3 hours straight. maan..whatever. i wanna burn that fckn book. well afterwards i tried to sleep but it didnt work so i went through the whole day without a nap..i ate dinner with madel, sherlyn, and norman which was great cause i feel like i haven't seen them in forever. caught up with them and our lives. then we headed to the maganda banquet which was pretty cool...i love listening to spoken words..there was this one crazy ass mofo though..hahah...he pointed at everyone in the room and said "do not...do not...do not.." i swear i thought he was gonna hold us hostage or some shit. hahah...well that didnt end til 11 and then even though i was tired as fck i still went to the AFTER PARTY. which was kinda weak. not as many people there. plus i wasn't in the party mood. but i guess it was arlight. i haven't danced in a while so that was fun. then this one guy asked me, "are you gonna let me dance alone?" and i was like..."WTF?!" i just looked at him crazy. but i still danced with him cause im too nice. good thing it was at the end though...muhahahahhaha.

well anyways...someone told me something that hella pissed me off and brought me down...dude, wtf is wrong with YOU?! i swear...some things or some PEOPLE will never change...im even more mad at the fact that i allowed myself to still be affected by your actions...but it doesnt matter now cause it just made me realize how grateful i am that things ended up the way they are right now...IM HAPPY

so last night was the PASS Banquet. we didnt get the position for PASOC facilitators, but i'm really happy for becky and tes cause they definetely deserve it. i have 3 more years at berkeley anyway, so i aint trippin. maan..im hella sad to see the seniors go. i got pretty close to a bunch of them and they all helped make my freshman year freakin great and memorable. :*( it finally hit me that the year is ending. fuck i dont wanna be sad right now...i'll reflect later on my freshman year...

today was....i can't even explain it in words.....i went to union city with roel and spent the whole day with him. i met his family...who were hella cool. i was kinda scared..but they're all very chill. we picked up his tux for prom cause he's taking his friend. and he looked very handsome. haha..then he insisted we eat out, so we did at some restaurant and then watched "the matrix-reloaded." not really my type of movie, but it was cool ;p then we chilled at his house. the whole day im just feeling AMAZED at everything...especially at him ;> i realized that im so lucky that i have such a great guy...i dont know what to say...it seriously feels like im dreaming, as cliche as that is. im VERY happy!!

Aww..last day of school ;>

Fck yea! no more schoooooooool! life is great right now ;> no more classes, it's been warm in berkeley, and i've been fCKn happy. sigh...maan, i'm soo lucky. who would have ever thought i'd find someone at berkeley? cause i surely didnt think so! but on a sad note...my first final is saturday morning at 8 and last final on tuesday at 9. plus i leave next friday...maan, i'm freakin sad. definetely gonna miss the dorms and the roomates : /

so much has been goin on...

Thursday: PASS's budget was cut so we all rallied up in the ASUC senate meeting all freakin day to show our support...what an experience! very empowering stuff. it's hella crazy how people are soo strong and passionate about their organization..i swear i'll never see anything else like it. some people were there the whole time..which was 24 hours...(literally)..cause everything ended up in a debate..well i guess thats berkeley fo ya!

Friday: took a bart trip with madel, sherlyn, and roel to daly city to pick up madel's cousin who drove up from SLO with her friends...i didnt know it was so tiring to sit in the damn bart! but anyways...despite all the parties that went on that night, i was fckN tired so roel and i just rented DRUMLINE...but i was too lazy to watch it so i just listened.

Saturday: had my interview for PASS...i think it went well. but who knows..it was hella weird being interviewed by my friends..but i have other years to be involved so i aint trippin. at 4:30 we got in line for the JURASSIC 5 concert at the Greek Ampitheater..we thought it would be a long line, but it wasnt. haha..its all good though. we just chilled. the concert was pretty dope..we sat close. and even though i didnt know them, i thought they had good beats and stuff. some punk group called Strung Out and another hip hop group called Living Legends performed too... the whole vibe was just fckN cool..freakin i swear everyone got high during the concert...haha, and this was my FIRST CONCERT ever..and it was free. good shit..maan it was freakin cold though! good thing i had roel..haha ;p

then afterwards...we had a MAD PARTY on our floor..i dont think this was ever done in the units. yup, breakin barriers. we were only able to pull it off cause our RA is hella cool. soo many people were here and freakin faded...we had a keg and dj in the lounge..crazy shit...but them some fools had a fight in the hall way so we had to close it down by 2..the folks on our floor still partied though...i guess some crazy stuff went down in the lounge..kissing and what not. haha...roel and i just slept cause we weret tired. but the worse thing was that some fckN idiot put beer in the fist bowl! i swear i was gonna cry...and they were just laughing at me when i was trying to save them. SHEESH! they almost fell in the sink too...maaan...i love those goldfish!

2 more weeks left..damn im sad!

A's Game with PASS interns today was hella fun....dollar hotdogs! haha...but it was HELLA FREEZING! me and madel got a little close in order to create some body heat...muahahaha..a little rubbing, touching goin on. we even used a damn umbrella to block the wind from hitting us..haha...gheeeetoooo! maan..all i wanted was some PINK COTTON CANDY! but did they have it? noooooooooo...they had green and yellow....wtf?

other than that...ive been really happy lately ;> feels nice to have someone to chill with and talk to

Aww..the weekend is over!
maan..this weekend was soo FckN great ;>

Friday: PAA's semi formal was soo much fun! i danced the whole freakin night away! i swear that dance was waaay too short. i wish we could relive it. high school all over again. it was at the Berkeley Marina so it was hella pretty by the water. RAYMOND T. and MENDRICK came up so that was hella cool. funny cause raymond and i actually went to a dance together..haha. too bad they couldn't stay long and i didnt get to show them around berkeley..but yea, there's always next year. i'm glad they had fun too. thanks for being my first visitors guys! afterwards everyone came over and chilled here for a bit...stayed up til like 4 in the morning watching saved by the bell with roel..hah, i love that show

Saturday: May 3rd (significant because it's the day before may 4th..haha..youre gay) roel took me to SF...even though things didnt go as HE planned..it was all good and i had fun...definetly a night to remember..especially cause its may 3rd, haha...we watched "identity" which was a pretty trippy movie...not all that scary though. hmm...then kicked it all night. tried to watch drumline but fell asleep...thanks for everything..especially your jacket ;p

Sunday: a day with the girls....madel and sherlyn took me out for dinner at the Thai House because of our "pact"..so yea, that was cool. they're soo cute. thanks guys ;> ...next year fosho! plus jay magpantay surprised me with a phone call..maan that was hella cool. he's in chicago right now for the navy...it was soo good hearing from him. he told me we're gonna have a pretend wedding..haha, good shit. he's still a sweetheart ;>

i dont really have anything to blog..im just stalling on homework...but here's whats goin on in my NOT-so-interesting life:

-went to the ortho and now my teeth hurt like a bitch!
-hella hungry...but teeth hurt too much to eat..soup is tiring
-my brother is following my ASB footstepts and running for jr vp....good shit
-express had my dress after all...yaay for me! that made my freakin day!
-applying for staff position on PASS..im hella scared
-last PASS general meeting...how sad
-madel french tipped my nails...my first time ever
-semi formal on friday....yaay! can't wait! it's high school all over again ;>
-raymond is coming to visit this weekend ;D he's my first visitor at Cal

mood: happy and excited ;>

saturday

i woke up early after sleeping late AGAIN cause i can't sleep, and went shopping with my cousin for my dress...didn't find anything though. i'm losing hope. i have no dress : / argh..whatever. so i got back and walked around telegraph and bancroft with drea to see if i could find anything..but i didnt. then i took her to get her eyebrows threaded as her bday gift from me. and when we got home we tried doing it on earl's leg hairs..hahah...its not as easy as it looks. but yea...had no time to sleep at all cause we went out to eat at mel's diner for drea's bday..it was cool cause her friends from UCSB came up and surprised her...then got back and everyone got ready to party..but i went to my friend erwin's place instead of the frats with drea. and for some reason..i didn't wanna party. it was sad...i looked like the little bitch on the couch who didn't wanna be there. i dont know what was wrong with me...didnt wanna drink, dance, or socialize. and everyone kept asking what was wrong but i didnt know. i guess i pushed myself to the limit and was just exhausted. no real sleep ever since wednesday night...so i was headed home but ended up chillen at jelly's place with everyone..it was better than erwin's crowded apartment. met someone new..roel from union city...pretty cool guy. chopped it up til 6 in the morning..so again no sleep...now i'm like madel. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER EDWIN! & TO MY ROOMATE DREA! (4/26)

so today i went to SF again...but this time for educational purposes. we took a tour with my pilipino class around the city's historical pilipino sites. i think everyone was pretty surprised and enlightened at the things we saw and learned today...it was hella cool..it makes you rethink what youre really looking at. soo much stuff went down in SF that goes unrecognized and i'm glad i had the opportunity to look at things from another perspective...the pilpino perspective. it just makes me want to share everything to the world...like, "hey did you know jose rizal stayed at this hotel in 1888?" craaaazy! it's moments like this that make me glad i went to berkeley. i dont think i would have grown as much culturally had i gone to UCSD. then we ate at jollibee...me and madel tore that shit up! Mmm..hadn't had pancit palabok in soo long! the trip was soo fun ;>

and now..my sleeping patterns are JACKED! geez..i can't seem to sleep comfortably anymore..sucks cause i love sleeping

so the rest of the day was freakin great...even though i had no sleep whatsoever...went shopping for semi-formal dresses in SF with my roomates! haha..good stuff...we had fun. im still not settled on my dress though and they got some pretty cute ones. hmm..then we had some oh so great steak and orange shrimp at the DC..how many times does that happen?! haha..and now..my whole floor is getting drunk..SIGH...peer pressure i tell ya! i'm a little woozy in the head...no more though. i still have shit to do tonight

all-nighter

look...6am..and im up doing a paper. we had an asian am midterm party..woopty doo! chris got done before we did and he's knocked out on lora's bed. drea is still working on finishing up. and me..i say FCK IT! i already exceeded the 3 pages and practically have 4...argh, whatever! i'm out..good morning

why do i have jury duty?! geeeeeeez....i already postponed the one i got in SD cause i was gonna be in Berkeley..and now i have one in oakland while i'm goin back to SD...why are they following me?! i bet they think i'm lying about me not living in the county. hahaha...ok..thats it.

ps..i'm happy and glad ;>

crazy, tiring, FUN weekend!

Friday: worked on PCN set forever and a day til 10. then ate and went to hang out at unit 2. i wanted to go home early but then i couldn't. drea called me and told me that our building was evacuated cause of a fire. some dumb ass lit the trash chute on fire. and our dorms being high rises, the smoke took over the top floors and stunk up our place. we went back at 2:30 when they were supposed to be open, but it was still closed. so norwin, chris and me went to mari's place till we were let in at almost 4 in the freakin morning.
Saturday:PCN was tight. next year i wanna be in it for sure. it's just hella cool to see your culture being portrayed on stage, i felt proud. then afterwards we ate and got ready for the after PAArty. crazy stuff maan...we got charter buses to take us to a club in SF. it's weird cause we were allowed to drink openly on the buses...i mean, how many times do you get to be on a bus getting faded with everyone?! and we were hella hyped up and loud. good times for sure! i had a lot of fun dancing too...it's been awhile. i was really sleepy though. so when we got back to berkeley at 2:30 i ate real quick cause i was so hungry and went to bed.
Sunday: HAPPY EASTER! maan, we were all down cause we wanted to be at home eating good food with our families. my mom all called me sayin they were goin to church and then eat at D&B...sigh...all we did was go to church and eat at the DC.

now back to the school life....midterm and an essay due this week..argh!

top 10 reasons guys suck
10. they are never satisfied
9. they are afraid of commitment (a classic)
8. they are like parking spots, the good ones are taken and all you are left with are the crappy handicap ones.
7. they have trouble expressing their true feelings
6. they think with the wrong head
5. they lead you to believe that they like you, and then just want to be "friends"
4. they make you cry
3. the ugly ones like you (or ones that dont match your type!)
2. the hot ones are either taken, gay, or dead
1. they are just too damn dense
-copyright from rhea ;>

in reference to my top ten list of why guys suck...
JSD00638: see, when girls go out looking for their type or finding their type
JSD00638: they get dissapointed
j e n n x2 85: haha
j e n n x2 85: i feel you on that
JSD00638: they need to either A. change their so called "type" or B. give people chances
j e n n x2 85: good one
j e n n x2 85: but part B doesnt work for me
j e n n x2 85: sometiems you just know that you would never work with that person
JSD00638: Because you carry around that preconcieved notion
j e n n x2 85: not necessaly
JSD00638: people like qualities not type
j e n n x2 85: true

argh! why soo complicated julius! haha!

maan i'm hella lazy x10000000000....midterms and senior weekend wore me out. but anyways..i watched "Better Luck Tomorrow" today...that all ASAIN cast film that MTV is endorsing. its only in select cities right now...but yea..it was weird. apparently its based on a true story that happened at a high school a guy on my floor went to. pretty weird...see it if you can guys...support the film and asian actors! also one of the guys in the movie graduated from Berkeley..cool stuff. ok thats it. the end. peace ;>

SENIOR WEEKEND

ok..its gonna be a long one guys! but what can i say? it was a great weekend! ;>

Thursday: had our last volleyball game..we had a blast! kinda sad its over. then i picked up my seniors..IRIS (locso) and CHRISTINE from hilltop..yaaay! from san diego...wha wha! you guys are the best! we checked out the open mic and it was cool..then KIM took over the rest of the night so i could finish studying for my midterm. when they got back all the senior folks chilled in our room...pretty cool shit..cause ya know the party is always up in 706! haha..riiight...so we were up pretty late talkin and all of that good stuff. i gave my seniors the beds and i took the floor.

FRIDAY:BEAUTIFUL DAY!, took my midterm at 9 and turned in my essay..thank GOD! so i was hella tired from my whole week of studying and late nights up. missed the carnival cause i had to prepare for the cultural workshops. sucks...facillitating the workshop was pretty cool. too bad our video wasnt working, so i took over and opened a discussion about "growing up pilipino in america" the guys liked it..aww i felt soo cool. then with the little time i had...i tried to spend time with my seniors and took them to get some CAL gear. that was a good 15 minutes before i had to leave them with kim again so i could set up for banquet. it felt like ASB again! aww...memories. it was cool and hella nice. then did registration for the kids and took their pics and cleaned up the darn place cause i couldnt go on the scavenger hunt in SF...i was EXHAUSTED! i heard it was fun though. but luckily that 2 hours they were gone i was able to take a nap. haha...when they got back they did their skits..soo cute! and then we took them to clar kerr to chill and whatever. got drunk off capri sun. haha...i think we were having more fun than they were. got back 3:30 and slept at 5. the two nights they were here my floor just had to be drunk! ya know? oh well..thats college life fo ya!

SATURDAY: after 3 hours of sleep..woke up to rain! suuuucks up the boootay! got ready to check in their stuff and have breakfast and closing stuff. it was CAL DAY..so we checked out the campus in the pouring rain to get free stuff. got soo wet! then took them to the super dc...which they loved! haha..so yea. didnt get to do all the things we wanted cause of the rain :*( they had to be back by 2 to board the bus..so yea..that was a sad moment...aww...but before we left i told iris to tell the guy we thought was cute to tell him..haha..they ended up exchanging SN's and numbers...HAAAAAeeeeeeeYYYYY! haha..ive trained her well.. sike...but yea...watched them board the bus and stood in the rain till it left. maan..im gonna miss them. I HAD SOO MUCH FUN! and i'm soo glad i had COOL SENIORS! though didnt get to do all the stuff i had planned..F'N rain! i hope they come to berkeley! after all the seniors left i slept for 4 straight hours and got up at 8 to eat homestyle dinner with the folks..fun stuff! ok too long...peace!

EXHAUSTED

so the past week or so i've been up til like 3-4 in the morning studying for this damn midterm and revising my essay over and over...and over again. maan..can't wait til 12 on Friday when i'm freeeeeee....freeeee at last! haha..ok well yea..not much goin on. im too excited for senior weekend...yeeees...we gonna have so much fun! alright ya'll...peace and no adobo grease cause thats just sick ; p

to eileen...aww..cool! i feel so loved! haha..good to know i have readers out there ;>

all weekend in the dorms...

yup! you read that right..haha...friday-sunday i stayed in my dorm reading and what not. didnt' even hang out with anyone at all. WOW..haha. weird. but it's good cause i got work done. not bad at all...so i'm trying to finish my essay and study for my midterm thats all on friday so i can party hardy with the seniors for SENIOR WEEKEND...yes! (PASS and other recruitement centers fly folks that were admitted to Cal for free to spend a weekend here and check out the school) they'll be here thursday night to saturday afternoon and i'm soo soo very excited! i remember last year when i flew up here with DIANNE for senior weekend and we were roomates with SHERLYN...maan, we were such punks! all anti-social cause we thought..or i thought, i wasn't goin to berkeley. LOL..and cyn was hella like, "i remember you last year and you looked like a snob sitting at the table." haha..i admit, i was shy and didnt talk to anyone. but yea, that was hella fun and basically my deciding factor in choosing Berkeley..so i hope the same happens to all the seniors coming up this weekend. ok thats it...peace and goodnight ;>

EH..BLEH..it's NOTHING...
"LONELY GIRL"-pink

WHY ME?! gosh..i hate how i'm feeling again. geez..PMS! it has to be. i'm just soo...sooo...I DONT KNOW! haha..like that made any sense. all these damn emotions..too much to deal with...anger for no reason, fustration, stress...worrying about what's gonna happen next or in the future. i'm tired having this PANIC feeling..like, i get soo scared that i'm gonna fail...and not just classes or whatever. but JUST LIFE..ya know? SIGH..i just feel like im losing myself. i used to be soo carefree and happy and CONFIDENT. now i'm just so conscious about everything. i dont' feel like anything anymore...i feel soo fake and like a hipocrite..not to mention one of the biggest asses in the world. I'M SO TIRED. home on a FRIDAY night, and believe it or not, i'm enojoying it. just wanna sit on my bed and think..ANALYZE everything goin on and how i'm feeling. yup...like the good ol' days in my room. maan, i dont' even have a room anymore. i'm back to sharing with my sister. too much thinking is not good though...definetly. umm yea...whatever. : /

anyways..watched "bowling for columbine" today cause sherlyn downloaded it. it was very sad and emotional and thought provoking. i dont understand why people result to hurting other people. dumb fCKS! also, joyce told me that she's scared of me. haha...maan, once again, JENN the INTIMIDATOR..argh. i need to learn how to "look nice"..thats my new goal.

i wonder...a lot..and I HATE IT! go away, please!

sorry, i just realized what drama this entry is...oh well...it's a blog..what do you expect?

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!

EH..whatever. april is gonna be one stressin month..too much goin on. school, pcn, senior weekend, blah blah...i just hope i can cope with all this. i plan to stay home and do homework on weekends so i can participate and help out with all these events.
everyone is campaigning right now for ASUC (student government)...some hardcore stuff goin on. its pretty exciting seeing all the sidewalks chalked up and people holding up signs.
my sister told me today that someone scratched the back of my car..or probably hit it with something. WTF?! geeez...people have no decency (sp?) these days! arrrrghx100! my baby is hurt!
my wisdom tooth is starting to grow out and i can feel it. it hurts sometimes..BOOOOO! : /

why does being light skinned symbolize beauty?
sad..but true. most of us define beauty by the the color of our skin. we discussed this today in Asian Am. why are we all afraid of getting dark? ya know..stayin in the shade, using umbrellas, etc..basically we avoid the sun because we dont wanna get dark. and then we use skin whitenning products to make us even lighter. i admit, i'm one of these skin color conscious people. i be usin my papaya soap like no other! we shouldn't define beauty by the shade of our skin..brown is beautiful! riiight...so why can't we all get over it? hmm....

Spring Break Re-cap

FRIDAY: chilled with PASS folks. did the outreaches at morse...pretty tiring but cool. ate at TODAI..paid for by PASS. and then went to the conference. interplay ended up DJing the event. so it was cool cause i got to chill with ADRIAN reyes for a bit. what a character! he tried to teach me to spin but i was too scared id mess up. i also ended up seeing michelle and cindy while driving...very awkward moment. i was soo shocked. but i hope we're all over what happened. i admit, i was dumb. : /

SATURDAY: ran errands, bought food to bring back to my hungry dorm. saw DEXTER at his work. haven't seen that fool in forever. lookin good as always...he said, "hey, someone told me you got fat. and you did! but its good though." haha..yea, thanks buddy.

SUNDAY: freakin missed my flight with the whole SD gang cause my fat ass wanted to eat before i left. my flight was at 4:55 and i left 3:55. and then the lines were hella hella hella long. gosh! i could have made it if the lines werent soo F-N long. so i got on standby for the 5:45..but that was fully booked so i had to wait til 6:30 before i finally left and thats when they arrived in oakland. i was hella crying to myself sitting there. i had to fight back the tears. i didnt even sleep on the plane, i was awake all sad the whole time. so when i finally got to Oakland, CHRIS was waiting for me. i felt so bad but i was kinda glad i didnt have to ride the shuttle alone since i never rode it. then MADEL, SHERLYN, and ANGELO paid for my mistake..they gave chris 20 bucks to pay for my ride home. thanks guys! even though you didnt have to. ;> the driver was kinda weird...haha. but yea..finally got back to berkeley around 8:45, then ate dinner with chris, then unpacked all my stuff. argh..i never wanted to get on a plane so badly in my life!

so overall, spring break was good...FUN actually! i got to chill with family, friends, do homework, and see a lot of people from high school. i miss the hot weather and driving my car though : /

spring break is almost over :(

maan, spring break is turning out to be better than i expected! yesterday was cool..went to my old elementary school for my brother's recognition assembly. maan, i felt soo old! it was weird..all these feelings and memories came over me. we had some good times up in that mug! but sadly, things have changed...also chilled with the folks again and KARREN pelonia came by too. havent seen her in forever and she's still pretty as ever! she's all like, you look older and healthy! haha, in other words, youve gained weight! we chilled at my house and snacked while playin with little bremer. ahh..babies are too cute! then we ate at L&L, MmmMMm...saw JANET there. and youre right, we were kinda shy toward each other. haha. but it was good seeing you! and then headed to ruthie's to chill some more. i rode in her kick-ass truck for the first time. haha..looks fun to drive...today my "casin" came over. she's a blast. haha. my auntie said.."oh, you gained weight. your face is round now!" geez..thanks auntie! and my mom said my arms are bigger now. maan..when will this torture end?! : / well tomorrow im gonna see all the PASS folks...good stuff. gonna do some presentations at morse. yaay! im excited. i miss high school days very dearly...why do things have to change? it seems like only yesterday when karren, ruthie, sheryl, and me ran around lunch time acting stupid and callin ourselves fat for no reason. haha..no more "LT100" club ;p oh and the lame parties we went to..starbucks runs...and i loved driving to school every morning. it was fun. and seeing people in their cars..ok i'm getting sad now and this is too long...peace out ya'll!

wait..tonights the first night ive been on AIM! haha..

chillen at home

so i guess its been alright so far...had to clean the house since no one else does it when me and my sister are off getting some higher education. chilled with susan, julius, and ruthie the other day..that was fun. we made some wontons at my house..haha, of course we gonna eat! and it was dang good! nice weather here too, i can wear a tank top without a sweater! finally! geez..i miss this warm weather. hmm..oh yea, got jury duty but i cant do it since im off at berkeley..yaay for me! i've also been doin my homework..good shit! ;> i feel soo productive this spring break.

it's official...mari called and we got our apartment..yaay? i dont know, thats some expensive stuff. im having second thoughts. we'd probably be able to find bigger and cheaper...argh! i dont know. i guess i feel bad cause my parents are paying for it. i feel like such a brat. i need to work...liked forREAL. im stressin over that. plus registration is coming up and i have NO idea what to take next semester or even summer! ; / i hate this panicky feeling...i dont know what the heck im gonna do..i feel so behind. i need to decide already on my major so i can work toward it. ahh...everytime i think of it, it makes me wanna scream and cry...

back in SAN diEGO

the trip back wasnt soo bad at all. pretty regular. but yea...while boarding the plane with angelo and sherlyn, it occurred to me, why must they have only peanuts on the airplane? ya know? i said that out loud and the guy in front of me laughed. but i'm serious. why not cookies? i mean, not everyone likes peanuts! geez..we're bout to start a petition to get some cookies up in that mug! and ya know ya'll be thankful in the end! cause i know i be gettin huuungrrry up in there! hahah..

anyways, so i'm here for not even a full 24 hours and i already get the double standard shit...wtf is that?! maan, my brother wasnt even home when i got home, he was all out having the time of his life and today he's out again at magic mountain. F-that! and i got all that bull about family first when i asked to go to kristine's bday get-together. makes me wanna screeeam! ahhhhh!

but enough about that..HAPPY BIRTHDAY KRISTINE! sorry i was late. it was good seeing everyone though. hmm...let me go wallow in my sorrow now. im tired. peace out!

ready for spring break

wow..what a day! busy busy busy! so i guess we're set on the gaia. we already turned in applications and stuff so we pretty much got it. yaay, we have a place to live! i just really dont like the kitchen. argh..but like they said, "you cant have everything jenn!" but then again, for $600 a month, this place should be perfect, ya know? oh well..and the guys are right below us so thats great. anways...i had lunch with jacob, well actually i didnt eat cause i was too hungry earlier so i ate already, but yea..it was short cause i had to meet back up with the girls. we opended our seperate "roomate" account and then celebrated our finding a place at mondo gelatto. great ice cream i tell ya! oh yea, and on the way there we saw JAMES from road rules...ca-OOOL! we walked right by him until madel made us look twice. good lookin out! haha. hmm...what else..oh yea, lost again! on our volleyball game...maan, hella hella wack! argh, i was soo pissed off!

im leaving at 2:30 today for our 5:25 flight...we dont know how crazy its gonna be at the airport. but campus was crazy today..all those anti-war protests...campus was PACKED! scary stuff, people got arrested. war sucks dude..im hella scared for what's yet to happen. hopefully nothing drastic.

so my sister was tellin me how her and her roomates kinda moved on from each other and she wants to move out. that sucks big time. i hope that doesnt happen to us guys! i love my new roommates!

maan dude, i havent even begun to pack...argh i hate packing!

tired and hungry

so all day we went searching for more housing since this condo deal is closing in pretty quickly and we're not sure if we want it now...since we found BETTER! omg..the best of the best! im talkin about..utilities, internet connection, furniture, the works. plus a bomb view of the city on the roof top! daaamn...all in one payment. kinda expensive, but if my parents are willing to pay then i'm alll good! and its only two years old..and get this, the building is called .The GAIA.how posh is that?! wow! we are gonna be living like BALLAS...one PHAT pad! plus the guys are gonna live in the same complex so that should be tight..hopefully next door! haha..riiight! good stuff guys! parties on the deck!

then we had to finish filming for the SoCal outreach video..tiring. and i look hella hella hella gross on video...yuck! i look fatTER..cause i know im not fat. okay guys?

so everyone seems to be hookin up lately..haha..kay ann said love is in the air..well then my air must be polluted cause i aint feelin it! naw mean?! haha ;p