Growing GROWN Up

It's a weird feeling this is...

the feeling that I'm finally graduated and can officially call myself a CAL ALUM.
the feeling that I no longer have a place to call home in Berkeley.
the feeling that when I came home, this was the first time I unpacked all my things and put them in drawers.
the feeling that home is now, what it is...HOME.

despite still living with my parents, I'm an adult with a degree...and now with a job and ten times the more responsibility than I've ever had in my life. Time to learn the ropes of managing my bank account, paying my credit card, having my own insurance, and so on.

I'm 23 and have no clue. I feel like everything just crept up on me, but I guess we all have to start somewhere. So here it is, the beginning of adulthood and the end of this blog. This thing started five years ago with a promise to end it once I've graduated...can't believe it's already time!

Here's to the good, the bad, the ugly...but most importantly, the beautiful memories...like my little cousin told me in a graduation card, "Welcome to the real world, well actually you've been in the real world after high school. But this time, the world is BIGGER."



Thank you for reading, good luck to everyone...life is definitely tough but just remember to always do what makes you happy, because then at least you know you'll be "okay." And who knows, I just might surprise you with another blog ;)

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less than two weeks.

it's so frustrating. im about to apply to mcdonalds at this point. ok, maybe nordstroms or some other place that id shop at. im serious too.

it's times like this that i SWEAR the world is against me. i can recall plenty of other situations where unlucky/misfortune/whatever you can add to the list, was my middle name.

i wish i was back in high school where things always went my way and there wasn't a worry in the world. now theres jobs, grad schools, LIFE.

boo-FREAKIN-hoo.

im a hard worker, where are my fruits?

wack!

im going to be internet-less for a while until the new account is being set up. this may be a good thing since i have a midterm on monday. but then again what am i gonna do after monday?

my sister tells me that my mom might have a party for my grandparents who are visiting from philippines AND my 30-something year old cousin? wtf?! did i not graduate this year? it's because im the middle child.

still jobless in sd and im going back in two weeks. why doesn't anyone like me?? :( there's a job i want to apply to in sf, HEH yea freakin right!

nothingness

i feel like a blob. saturday i sat around, napped, recovered from staying up all week for no real reason. sunday sat around bc...i just didnt wanna do homework.

at least some good things came out of this weekend: chit chatted with good ol' brian. don't think ive seen this guy since second year when he was our source for beverages and now we're loungin' sipping legally. went jogging...didn't last long but it's a start!

im bored, well lazy actually and my head hurts. plus job hunting still sucks. whatever..bye bitches. hopefully ill get to sleep at a decent time tonight so i can study all day tomorrow.

no clubbing this weekend?! :)

finally because im over it.

my first "movie night in the park" was just splendid. families, friends, couples...it was just good vibes all around. and what better movie to watch than the classic "sixteen candles." i wouldnt mind do this again :)

also spent a sunday afternoon at the beach. tanning?? haha...not really. and thats a good thing.

i also started reading. i know, big shocker.

yaaaaaay-yah!

so my dumbass never kept up with rapid rewards my whole college career and yet, there has been a miracle. i was able to add past flights to my new rapid rewards account and now have a free flight! thank the Lord for emailed flight confirmations :)

i take it back

the last entry that is...haha, emotions are too high right now. i blame it on the estrogen.

im seriously addicted to painting my nails :x im never that girly!

did you know that hershey's kisses have different phrases written on that little strip of paper now? kinda like fortune chocolates but not really. guess what mine said today? "i miss you" heh...puuuurfect.

im never buying a bag of picos again..theyre dangerous to my health.

18 fricken days...here we go. id like to think of it as a good segway into the real shit.

i wanna read but am too lazy to go to the library to get books. HAHA.

"it ain't that bad"

that's what i keep telling myself hoping that one of these days i'll actually believe it.

5 1/2 weeks left of summer school - 2 1/2 weeks mike is vacationing in tahiti = 3 weeks left to savor independent living (somewhat) and give or take 6 days left to spend with mike since i only see him on the weekends

dramatic much? yea, you would be too.

i don't know why i write about him, he doesn't write about me in his xanga :crying:

HAHA jp im not crying. im just bored...and sad.

at least i love my classes this summer :)

bars-bees-ques

never been to so many bbqs in my life.

1. we hosted a little shindig at the apt in which we had a little reunion thang goin on. i must give props to retrospect4life for handling the corn like no other.
2. LPG's event on the rooftop where i ate one rib and 2 slices of cucumber.
3. mari's, aka pilipinas cause her ass was squatting washing dishes up on the water pump when we got there(hahah jp bitch, love ya!)where we jumped like mexican beans in the astro jump. i was sweat-N'!
4. part II at the apt with my aybaybaybay :) hahahah.

amidst all this food i managed to learn a couple of things, first...karma aint no lie. second...uh, nevermind ;p

i figured it out

long distance sucks..especially when youre only ten minutes away.

errr.. i just wanna move back home with a job waiting for me, a nice car to drive to that job, apply to nursing school, get into a nursing school, graduate, and marry a hot doctor that's going to buy me any puppy i want. that's the plan for the next five years or so because fck, by then ill be 28 years old :(

hey employers, fuckin hire me already...or at least give a girl a damn interview!

on brighter note, i love this picture because it's the epitome of summer: colors, family, and sun...not to mention caroline is hella smiling

FYI: I'm still alive

im officially a CAL alum but still taking classes to broaden my potential nursing school admissions list. ie NYU didn't work out :(

just came back from a quick vacay in sd...a very much needed one indeed. swimming (or rather floating around in my life jacket) + graduations + Del Mar fair (i like to keep it OG) = a happy charcoal colored jenn

im about to get a haircut :x i hate getting those because no matter what i always end up dissatisfied. oh well, do what you gotta do because these nappy roots are a fashion no-no.

currently still waiting to feel the perks of having a UC Berkeley degree...applying for jobs seriously dampens my ego.

well, that's THAT. PEACE until i feel emo again :)

best time waster ever

monday: 7 page essay
wednesday: chill-ass group presentation
thursday: 70 multiple choice questions, open book

thats all i have to do for finals and yet i am the laziest bum of them all...sad.

my brother hurt himself during football and got 18 stitches on his leg...kinda cool.

ive never watched so much basketball in my life...i like matt barnes because, i just do.

next time i post i will be graduated :)

MAY day

and so the countdown begins...


by far the best finals schedule ever though.

pcn afterparty was a trip...i learned a lot:
1. katrina and mari are my favorite people to dance with
2. jager bombs and patron shots are still my favorites
3. never sit in your car with the radio on for over an hour, unless you wanna be stuck in sf with a dead car battery.


thats it.

TODAY

today i stubbed my toe when opening that huge door to heller lounge. it throbbed, it bled. i sat in front of MLK with a wet paper towel trying to hold back the blood and my tears. what an emo moment.

brain dead

im such a slug, oh well...movies, dnbs, A's game...i'm having fun :)

had the hangover from hell during davis' picnic day last week though, not gonna repeat that again. my only concern right now is that i may have ruined my two favorite drinks for myself :/

it sucks not having a job and no money, but when im an NP, oh man, it will be sweeeeeet! first thing i'm gonna buy is a puppy :D

ps. dont hate.

better late than never

i love my girls, i love my roommate, i love being with the in-chik, but underneath all the smiles and fun...i get a little more sad everyday.

ps i finally upload pics... http://www.imagestation.com/members/jennx285

best spring break EVeeeeeR

i had A LOT of fun on the cruise. the best gourmet gourmet dinners complete with appetizers and dessert, horseback riding on the beach (even though i had the most malnourished horse in the world), eating real tacos, lots of mexican candy, hot tubbing, "clubbing" three nights in a row...it just felt soo good to relax.

then mike followed me home...dinner with the fam at harrahs, finally got to use our hot tub, disneyland on tuesday with the casin was just as fun...ate every freakin snack available. despite splash mountain and fantasmic being closed, we pretty much did the whole sha-bang. so sad the fireworks were cancelled :( dinner at sonics,then took him to the navy exchange, played with caroline for 3 hours, and finally ended our spring break at extraordinary desserts.

that was such a laundry-list of events...oh well :)pictures later after i jack them from facebook, haha

anyways...it's official. i have the best boyfriend in the world because...
1. he accompanies me in 6+ grueling hours of shopping in the city and didn't complain once...not even when i went home empty handed.
2. he offers to go shopping with me again, just so i could get something.
3. he buys my christmas/birthday present 3 months later
4. he always butters me up when im upset
5. my parents seem to really like him

here's to 6 more weeks...

current sitU-a-tioNZ-s

finally SoCal weather is showing the bay whats up. LOVin the heat :) still, certain things have prevented my fun

midterms. thank God im done til AFTER spring break cause this laziness properly, termed "senioritis," is outta control

i have a canker sore in the worse place possible... next to the third (sharp) tooth to the right. horrible.

work. i hated it. notice the past tense? i get a call from my boss today saying that he's decided to close his berkeley office :(

ahhh i really can't wait for spring break!!! mexico, disneyland, fam bam...this is going to be greeeeeat!

um, is school over yet?

laziest semester thus far. id tell you how lazy i am, but that would just be embarrassing myself.

past couple of weekends have been more fun than usual. "you and me things" are always good, even if it's as simple as movie hopping at shattuck cinemas. overrated sushi made up for with a chocolate covered caramel apple, walking the embarcadero, and driving around the tourist spots of SF makes my heart skip a beat. haha...just wanted to make ya'll barf real quick. we also managed to pick up some new friends ;>

right now, i have this ridiculous take home midterm. progress is very minimal. UGH. you know what else is ridiculous? the amount of money i spend buying food :(

cruise coming up real quick...yaay for finally doing something cool for spring break!

Signed, Sealed, Delivered....I'm YOURS

and so it ends. if it's meant to be, it will be. if it's not, then i'll be ok. but right now, i'm pretty proud. the process has forced me to look back at the past four years and although it may not be as great academically...at least i can say i never gave up.

here's a quote from ms. sherry that i remembered reading from her blog:
"and i guess the most important thing is that by doing this "thing" you become closer to your goals and what you want to do. being ridiculous is never an easy thing to do and you may fall down many times, so many that giving up may be a tempting choice. but hopefully, in the end, it will be all worth it! maybe thats why it is called "being ridiculous" because you may fail many times, the odds may feel like it is not in your favor, it can bring you down, and the timing may never feel right, but you are ridiculous enough to continue on with it. it is never to late to be ridiculous, proceed at your own pace."

it's just another step in what they call "growing up"

to whom it may concern

how hard is it to...

1. put in a new roll of toilet paper when you obviously took the LAST FUCKIN PIECE?
2. put in a new roll of paper towels when you obviously took the LAST FUCKIN PIECE?
3. wash the rice cooker when obviously there's NO MORE FUCKIN RICE IN IT?
4. clean the FUCKIN STRAINER after you wash your FUCKIN DISHES?
5. wipe the FUCKIN SINK after you splatter water all over the FUCKIN COUNTER?


HOW FUCKIN HARD IS IT?! COMMON FUCKIN SENSE!!

I'm soo about to shoot someone right now. Where did all this anger come from you might ask?? Having to get up in the middle of taking a shit just because some lazy ass fucker was too lazy to refill the toilet paper after leaving it completely empty.

I AM FREAKIN FED UP.

:inhale: :exhale:

that felt good :) thank you for listening.

aint no fun if the homies can't have none

valentine's dayS...semi gourmet home cooked dinner complete with dessert and the growing pains marathon. then equinox the next night with a failed attempt to complete a full revolution before we finished dinner. we love food too much <3

blush..."oh my gosh, sooo much fun!" i was doing soo well until we stepped out the club :( wasted my $20 sushi buffet dinner. haha, it was well worth the good times though! i wonder how dennys employees deal with such drunk belligerance every weekend??

i hate chinese new year.

i really really need to do something productive, library foSHO tomorrow.

this is no fun

for a hot second i was enjoying the rain...given that it hardly rained this winter. but fuck that. i take it back. heller, slc, and every other place where i can eat and go online was mad packed...with people and nasty must. this led me to half an hour of wandering aimlessly in the rain trying to find a descent place that will accept both me and my hot cup of tea. i gave up.

the tip of my socks are soaked. rain boots would be really nice right now. i remember when i was in second grade, i had these bomb ass white cowboy boots that kept my little feet dry. i wonder what kind of outfits i wore with those boots?? haha...random memories.

why must we have an open book midterm?? if only they told us earlier, maybe i could have bought that $100+ physio book at a cheaper, used price. duuuuumb.

stop, wait a minute

is it just me or are the days and weeks suddenly in fast forward mode?

random thought: remember how we learned cursive in elementary school? what was the point of that? to learn how to write our signature perhaps; because id say 1 in 50 people actually still use cursive today. what a waste of time.

im addicted to gummy chocos :)

what a dumb day

forgot my keyes at home (hopefully)
noticed my watch ran out of battery (of which i don't have the funds to get it fixed)
missed every bus possible (saw them drive off into the distance)
papercut (how does a tiny slit in the skin hurt so much?)

and on top of that, i can't seem to get in the swing of school just yet. 2-3 page feels more like 20 right now. cold libraries don't help either. i miss the donut room in dwinelle.

oh yea, and some people are sooo retarded. seriously. hey, can i slap you real quick?

"hey, remember when..."

minus the presence of madel and sherlyn, we had a little reunion thang goin on. roel back from in-dya, and chris, norman, and robie visiting brought back bittersweet memories. looking back at all our parties, dramas, what-evs....all we could do was laugh our heads off. dang, we were a freakin sit-com. feels good being surrounded by familiar faces, just what i needed :)

OH MY...

GOSH!!

lifeisBORING.blogspot.com

i renamed my blog. k not really, but thats what it should be. give me some adventure, spontaneity, excitement....give me LIFE! alright fine, end drama. see how loser i am? talking to my damn self on this damn blog. really though, i miss having friends around 24 hours a day 7 days a week.

all i want is some fuckin pomagrante cider, shopping in the city (which i haven't been to since last spring??), pizza, sushi, carne asada fries, all the jeans in the world and disneyland.

how many days til graduation?? $100 bucks says that when it finally comes, i won't want it happen.

jgvl;dauogwej

this was definitely the longest week of my life. at least i had the bestest winter break ever, ending with a weekend in tahoe. thanks to mike's patience i can now stop, heel side, and sometimes toe side, well not really. cool huh?

school barely started and im already the laziest girl in the world..even with a four day weekend every week.

im supposed to be in philippines right now :(

static hair pisses the fuck out of me.

i am SO IN LOVE

...with justin timberlake. what a grown n' sexy mothAfuckA. he totally sang "until the end of time" to me.

and judge alex on channel 2 who is on 1-2pm monday through friday. thats what get for having no cable in berkeley.

k bye.

ps. im addicted to price check machines at macys. its soooooo fun when you scan something and see that its only $10..huh?!

maturation; the act or process of maturing

i think that's what 2006 was all about. learning to grow up and taking the first steps into adulthood. not just moving on in life, but knowing how to act in certain situations, dilemmas, or mishaps. minus the month of may and spring break, i can hardly recall a bad moment. it's been a good year...and i definitely owe it to my family and friends.

if it's anything that i really learned this year, it's that i am one lucky bitch. i have a great family and some of the bestest friends in the world. seriously.

grudges were let go, trust has be reinstated, anger and pride subsided, battles picked the right way...

i only hope 2007 will be the same, if not better. here's to keeping the friendships going no matter what distance separates us, finally graduating, making the fam proud, and continuing to grow as a person.


ps. last year's goal of gaining the freshmen 15 all over again..it's been scratched off :)

CHEERS YA'LL!

breath in, breath out..

shit, it's been a minute! so much has gone on that its making me lazy to write. boo...oh well, here it goes in a nut shell:

-wednesday marked the end of my military dependence, aka 23rd birthday :(
-surprise bouquet of tulips sent to my doorstep from...???
-mike came down and stayed at my house! wow...big steps for my parents in accepting my adulthood. haha
-holiday bowl...gooo bears!
-partying in downtown with the berk folks and drinking so much that mari had to drive home for me..hahah. thanks again!
-window shopping at southcoast plaza with mari then going crazy at the outlets. yaay for our new wristlets :D
-chillen at the W rooftop and enjoying scenery.
-new years eve with the fam bam at our house

the past couple days have been mucho fun and mucho tiring, but definitely worth it. thanks folks for everything...love ya alllll.

coming soon: pics and hopefully my usual year in review