it was the funnest weekend all semester:

friday was sherlyn, mari, and val's bday bash...crazy stuff. im glad everything fell through even if there were probs here in there. props to them for planning it, especially madel. so it was fun...we had madori sours ; > but ya'll know me, a few mixed drinks here and there is all i can take these days. haha...its ok, alcohol stinks and makes me wanna barf. i cooked the chicken, fixed the girl's hair, and was the designated driver for the night...yaay! fun stuff for me! haha...too bad madel, sherlyn, and val were HELLA hung over the next morning. haha...throw up galore. sherlyn's sister drove up from irvine and surprised her so that was cool. highlight of the night...sherlyn downing that sapphire (yuck)

saturday we went to SF...sherlyn and her sister left early so roel and i just took the bart to meet them there. madel couldnt go cause she felt sick....i wish she did though! anyways...so it was just roel and i chillen at pier 39 while the others went driving around. it was soo much fun though..lots to see and to do. we watched seals, went into almost every store, and walked down fisherman's warf. glad it was a beautiful day! we could have one $120 from this one guy who was doing that card thing where you have to find a certain card after he moved them around. it was soo easy and people were placing bets up to $200...this guy was an idiot and lost $300...he looked like he didnt care though, rich ass mofo! roel and i didnt have enough for the starting bid of $100 though...maan, im soo goin back there! SF street acts are soo cool! then we met up with sherlyn and her sister for dinner with their friend from SF. then they took us around and we got to see the full house house that they show in the beginning and robbin williams house!! and we even saw him through the window inside! craaaazy...haha talk about stalkers. the lights were on so we looked...no harm in that ; > it was soo pretty in that neighborhood...i would live there if i had money. then we came home and i knocked out.

sunday was FED (filipino empowerment day)...our high school conference. it was a great turnout. that night at church we saw James from road rules! haha...hella passed by him...i could have bumped into him on purpose ; >

anways...this is too long. i seriously ahd fun though....after that math midterm and anthro research paper, i think it was well deserved! im goin home on wednesday.....cant wait!!

oh yea, next person to see around berkeley is Johnny Mosely....he's in my friend's class....he's gonna be a tough one though

daang, did i forget to mention the only bad part of the night? this girl had the same dress...different color. mine was better. see...thats why i hate forever 21! it was my last resort and i had no chioce. not funny guys. they kept laughing at me and even talked to the otehr girl. how mean! talk about total embarrassment!

im in a good mood cause i did waaay better than i thought on my chem midterm. i swear i teared cause i thought i failed it..yeeeees, im soo happy!! ; >

anyways...weekend was fuuun! it was roy and yvonne's wedding on saturday (roel's brother)...here are the highlights:

-ian and labib picking me up later than expected and walking in the church just in time before the procession....great timing!
-roy's surprise speech..."i dont know when, i dont know how, but i knew i wanted to marry you." tear jerker
-roel's parents calling me over to meet the WHOLE family. haha...funny. "next daughter?" puh-lease...im too young ;p
-mike freakin interogating me about EVERYTHING
-labib taking us all around walnut creek just cause he wanted to drive roel's car longer
-yummy appetizers!! who would have thought coconut and shrimp would have been soo good?
-roel's best man speech...great job!
-the bread rolls ; >
-the video montage...and i was even on it, yay!
-shawn drinking like crazy and then throwing all of it up
-madori sour (sp?)...best tasting alcohol
-labib and mike dancing with all the aunties
-roy calling me out on the mic and then dragging me from the table to do the bouqet toss. then roel saying, "thank God you didnt catch that" haha...no shit
-labib catching the garter and winning 100 bucks
-the hotel room auntie and uncle got us..embassy suites was hella nice
-the king size bed we tried to fit 5 people on for fun...haha.
-them opening the door while mike was in the shower

ok, im lazy now. but it was fun...especially meeting the family and hanging out and getting to know more of roel's friends. theyre funny. alright....that is it. after this week is over im done with midterms, papers...and all of that nonsense shit!

who wants to ditch school forever with me?

.idiot.

GRRRRRRR

i just feel like blogging...its been awhile since i blogged late at night about my feelings and shit...and since im home alone right now, its as good a time as ever...

so life has been good and bad this semester. school is freakin tough. really though....can i ever see an "A" on my transcript again?! berkeley is tough shit. sometimes i wonder how it would be if i had gone to UCSD instead..would i be getting better grades? would i have been able to grow as much as i did in berkeley? i really dont know...but walking through campus i always think to myself..."damn im one lucky girl" seriously... i still cant believe i go to berkeley, the number one public instituion. and even if it is hard as fck....in the end at least i can say "i did it"...just to see my parents face when i recieve that diploma will be worth all the shit im going through with school. yea, maybe i DONT get top notch grades like i did in high school, but this is berkeley. everything is a million times more competitive. as long as i know i worked my hardest, i know i'll be fine....YES, i will be. i can't believe how much ive grown emotionally...relationships flourished in my life with family, friends, and now roel. all i can do is thank GOD for blessing me with such great people. sometimes i gotta take a step back and remind myself of it. slowly im discovering myself...and i find that i'm NOT as strong as i thought i was. crying cause i dont know what classes to take? whoa...what kind of shit is that? i'm so lost....i really am. what i am learning is to lean on the people around me....realizing that i dont have to do everything on my own. knowing my limits and when to set my pride aside...thats probably the hardest thing i could ever do. you know what though? one thing i am missing right now is relaxation. its so hard for me to just sit and watch a full show on tv these days...its kinda sad. most of my free time is spent sleeping. how i get through the days...?? cause of roel...he really is my motivation. even though we can have our little times when we get irritated by each other, nothing ever goes further than a few minutes. and even if it may seem biased to say that i think we make a good couple, i really do think so. for one thing, we dont hold each other back from anything...better yet, we push each other forward. we do things for each other because we want to, not because we feel like we have to. we know how to give each other space and let each other be. he doesnt always have to be by my side and i dont always have to be his side. all my life i wanted a guy who could make me laugh, who had ambition, who was close to his family, sweet, caring, handsome...and i promise you that roel has all of that. ok, i'll stop now. this is too long and you guys probably dont care to hear about my love life. just one last thing....i am really content with my life right now...even if school bugs.

so many birthdays...

my little brother darius is 12 (nov. 6)...dang, all grown up already! i miss that chubbster...who i hear is skinny now : /

uh oh...and the roomie sherlyn! happy birthday!! i can't belive i took that shot with you...but it was fun! hope you enjoyed your day cause you deserve it! ; >

(im soo clumsy! : / sorry roel)

<3 6 months <3

i got him a build-a-bear...its wearing a t-shirt that says "happy anniBEARsary" and is holding a heart pillow. didn't know they had anniversary ones. its cute. and i also got him this cute card...he got me this big Nala doll. its cute. it perfectly sits on my bed. we had dinner and crepes....my new crave! strawberries are the best!...and so is roel ; >

question...key word of this entry is??

CUTE! haha..sorry that was gay. i just realized how much i said that word in this entry. stuuuuuuuupiiiiiid!

haha...thanks madel for the comment...i actually remembered when i went to sleep but didnt wanna get up. i was hoping you wouldnt read t his til later...but anyways, here goes story of getting in trouble #8:

roel and i were innocently studying last night in the solarium, which is a lounge type deal on the roof of our aparment building..(and hella nice i might add)....til alomost midnight. in the meantime madel and sherlyn were studying in the apartment while watching the security cameras on tv...cause we have access to the channel (cool stuff, i know). anyways...so as we were headed back and i opened the door, i see that its dark and no one was in there. how sad, i was worried about where they went :/ ....and then all of a sudden....BOOM! they pop out of the bathroom and i screamed like a biatch. little did we know that the windows were open, thus letting my scream echo throughout the hallways...and the hallways pick up EVERYTHING! so while they were crackin their little asses up at me forever and a day...we hear it, KNOCK KNOCK...then of course the laughter silences and we all look at each other doing the, "you go answer it look". haha...sherlyn and madel got the door, said sorry to the old lady from next door. and there you have it! and to think they tried to blame it on me for screaming?! yea freakin right....and they know that their gonna get it soon enough...could be tonight, tomorrow....move out day? who knows..........

i realized that the only thing i ever blog about these days are my weekends. haha...cause i guess other than that my life is just school. anyways...sooooo....halloween was alright for me. i just finished my psych midterm so i was ready to have fun. roel and i got matching costumes...yup, a cave man and cave women with cheetah print. hahaa..he actually wore it! i thought it was cute....and just a little sidenote, im NOT in love with cheetah print. its just funny that i have a cheetah blanket, slippers, and pillow...haha. really though, i don't! it just kinda stuck with me. anyways..it was freakin cold that day! weird ass berkeley weather cause it was scorching earlier in the week. we headed over to tricia's party and stayed there til like 1:30 cause of course it got broken up. it was cool though cause i was tired and we freakin walked across berkeley just to get home cause the bus was too slow. today (saturday) i studied with roel at heller lounge til he went to his midterm review...then madel and i spontaneously went to SF...spontaneous times are always good times! i swear everyone and their momma's were there. we shopped a little...couldnt find shit. i need a dress for roel's brother's wedding...in 2 weeks! and i got more midterms coming up too...plus a research paper : / boo to that. thanks madel for the fun day! i like it when we catch up like that ; >

monday, november 3rd, is 6 months...already?! im soo happy...

alright folks...goodnight. leave a comment or something to make me smile!