Happy Halloween!!

or not...cause it sure freakin slipped my mind. amidst everything going on, it could at least FEEL like halloween. dont you hate how holidays lose their feeling as you get older? yea, i wish i was 10 instead of 21 right about now.

im soo down to go back to disneyland if you are!

my date and i in front of the magical castle...hahha

we make thursday nights fun!

so sick of love songs..

wooord to your mothA! mari got me hooked to this song "SO SICK" by Ne-Yo, download now!!

lots of good stuff goin on..senior kick it @ Thalassa's turned into , MMMJ kick it. actually played pool for the first time, hahah. mike and i won...or not, cause both times we hit the white ball in with the eight ball. can i just tell you that mari was some hot shit that night? geez...guys were literally flocking to our pool table. great night as always with those girls :)

funniest joke of the night from madel, "see mike, i understand chinese."

friday had dinner at skates by the bay...maybe the most expensive dinner ive had with people other than my family. nuts. too bad my freakin seafood boil was more like gumbo :( actually skipped out on partying and slept at midnight...felt toooo goood!

this brought me to the best saturday in a long ass time. actually didnt have to wake up early for anything, finally had the time to clean this dirty ass, dust and hair infested apartment. pajamas all day long...jealous huh? was actually productive in spending 6 hours tryin to come up with a flyer for the concert...i love it.

that night was HILARIOUS...10 fingers and hot seat with four people....oh maaaan...i love love love it.

played volleyball tonight cause they needed a girl. brings back memories...maybe i should have just signed up. i miss it.

SIGH....overwhelmed with REALITY.

im a dumb girl

sue me...i would!

good times with sherlyn today...love it! it was a one time deal...

sorry if i have feelings. sorry if i have a heart. sorry if i care. i wish i didnt.

REALLY NOW..

there must be some conspiracy against me. NOT COOL motherfckers! geeeeeeeez...haha. i guess im the only one in this world that karma pays attention to?? hmmm...FIX IT!


anyways...just wanna say that friends make the world go round' <3

on: you're prolly in the shower but i'm going to work out soon. but i just wanted to say that i really really HATE what he's doing to you. don't forget that you're a wonderful, beautiful person and he's a total jerk for hurting you. i know everyone tells you that he's not even worth it etc. but i know you still care bout him but seriously, be strong. i'm here for you.


here's my new saying: you can't help the way you feel, but you CAN definitely help the way you act. THINK ABOUT IT.

i'm not crazy, just a little UNWELL

damn...here goes my emo day of the week. soo many times today i wanted to cry. im a dumb girl.

i just realized my cell phone bill is going to be nuts...sorry mom and dad.

mission concert is one month away. fck.

i feel sooo alone in this big bad world.

i wanna hide under a rock.

ever question why things happen the way they do??

yea, it sucks.

the fantasmic song makes me feel better.

ps...i miss my baby love.

smiles all around :)

disneyland was freakin wonderful! felt like a little girl, especially during fantasmic. i swear i was smiling and clapping the whole time..even almost shedded a tear. fireworks were pretty too :) good times spent with good friends and good laughs. ahhh...i love love LOVE it! wish it didnt have to end so fast. right when i got home i downloaded disney songs like crazy...but the whole weekend i sang:

Someday my prince will come
Someday I'll find my love
And how thrilling that moment will be
When the prince of my dreams comes to me

magical!! haha

guess what souvenirs we all got? haha..shot glasses, duh! Disneyland really is the happiest place on earth.

friendship games was the best out of my college experiences...even won ourselves 3 out of the 5 games. the game that madel and i coached was the hardest...dammit, but our team did well. saw some old folks from high school i havent seen in foreeeever! they both said i look different. hopefully its not a bad different?? oh well...ran the whole day on 30 minutes of sleep. hotel situation sucked ass. kicked it at a friend's house in pamona, s'mores and daquiries and beer. glad to say all i had was one bottle of daquire. could it be im winding down on this streak of alcohol every week?? after, we were soo tired we ALL knocked out at midnight. haha..sleep never felt soo good.

the drive back was nuts! madel, sherlyn, norwin, and i stayed up the whole time sharing embarrassing childhood stories and asking random questions. so when we saw berkeley approaching, we all kinda got sad :(

i dont think ive ever laughed soo much in one weekend. thanks ya'll! it was theeee best getaway from this shit town berkeley. (k, maybe im over exaggerating on the shit town.)

comments:
-next time i go to disneyland, im definitely going with a significant other...hahah
-the lollipop and soundtrack were a nice gesture
-a home viewing of cinderella and chocolate covered gummy bears were a great way to end a great weekend...thanks! :)


feeling....good.

ps. told you so. i can be a lot of things, but i know im NO FOOL. bhetch.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

FINALLY!!!! I'M GOIN TO DISNEYLAND :D


i love love love it!

peace out ya'll.....ill be at the happiest place on earth!
...and friendship games!



maybe ill come home with prince charming?? hahah


"how to be a gentleman for dummies"..it works, haha

great great great

disneyland is soo close yet soo far. lets go already dammit!!

so i was kinda random this morning. couldnt focus on my lab write up so i took a shower and went to get a haircut. ok, maybe not so random cause ive been planning on getting one for weeks now. and i loooooooooooooove it!! i had the best hairdresser ever...soo good i tipped her 5 bucks cause she still kept the length on my hair just like i wanted. feels good to have fresh cut healthy hair. now i can actually look down at my hair and smile :)

storytime: so while i was having my hair cut, another lady comes in complaining about her hair. apparently it used to be as long as her lower back, but over vacation in LA it was so hot she had to cut it up to her shoulder...then she added, "plus i was upset at my husband." haha, the hairdresser and i kinda chuckled to ourselves. a few moments later her husband walked in with the most adorable 2 year old. we couldnt help but stare at him and smile. i thought it was cute.

so yes...i bought another freakin bag of chocolate covered gummy bears. im horrible :)

the weather outside is nasty. kinda suits the mood. puuuuuuuuurfect. makes me wanna sit at home and fall asleep on the couch with a mug in one hand while playing a romantic comedy. i wouldnt mind cuddling either...with my pillow and cheetah blanket ;>


ps. i think i like jason now.

EMOnday

been feelin emo last couple days...lame, i know. i now own a playlist called, "because im sad." haha...maybe i shouldnt have shared that with you guys. oh well, i dont care. so came home for my 2 hour break to have mari IM me with the quickness and say she's bored. i run my ass to slc to have ourselves a therapy session. whew...i needed that. thanks mari for making my days better.

i also bought myself yet ANOTHER bag of chocolate covered gummy bears...(black and white) to make myself better. and dammit, they did! they ran out pretty quick though.

besides that, today was the best midterm of my life. i love my professor, she tells you every single answer in review :) anatomy is greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeat.

i have a new perspective on libraries. fck libraries.

lots of songs on repeat.

can you keep up?

:SIGH:

physics midterm is over...hope it went well. broke my promise of no drinking til friday and did some bar hoppin' with the seniors to celebrate the end of a midterm thursday night. mucho fun ya'll! here's my goal: acquire the taste of beer before age 22. that gives me...2 months?? haha. hot damn. after the bars we still managed to drive ourselves all the way to daly city for some 24 hour filipino food...topsilog was just like home :) MMmmm....

bowling with p4, pahc, and pasae was cool. surprised at how many people showed up...good shit. pre-partied cause thats just what we seem to do nowadays. didnt bowl though...i dont like bowling.

PAHCing session was sooo much fun on saturday! hahah...love the aunties and uncles. they gave us a box of tampons to take home...puuuuurfect! err...i really really wanna go to the medical mission :( studied on a saturday night...i needed to tone it down. rewarded ourselves with a blockbuster rental: The Amityville Horror. Just like the original...didnt ever think i'd watch a scary movie with a guy who screamed more than me...HAHA :)

mcdonalds breakfast, chillin/tanning on the grass, bbq, dodgeball, laundry, and books sums up the weekend.

"suck it up and accept it!"...FINE!!

i wish i was having as much fun as it looks...cant keep up.....NEED TO SLOW MY ROLL!! i thought this would make it easier but i guess NOT. :/

yea..im a bitter...so what?

oh what a night!....weekend!

hmm...dont even know where to start. again, i think ive been having more fun than school.

friday was chimichandra's long awaited party. before that, sherlyn, mari, and i were watching "save the last dance" talkin bout how lazy we were and blah blah. funny how we always get like that before going out. then mari started playing beauty parlor and did all our hair and make up...taking shots in between. hahah! love it! walked to the party pretty buzzed and the rest of the night was just flowing with good times! didnt know washing machines could bring people together?? ended up bringing home our new friends....oh maan....definitely a night to remember in soo many ways...

saturday was a chill day...shopping, first time eating at goldilocks (i know, right?!), playing pyramid with the roomies plus the mikes...hmmm....

frienship games picnic the next day...can you believe madel and i are fckN coaches?? haha...still crackes me up. i have a feeling its going to be a good one this year :)

oh yea...did the dreaded fortune cards. i hate those cause theyre always true...kinda got a good fortune this time??...4 cards..perfect...we'll see how things go.

SIGH...roles are reveresed. shouldnt i be happy or something?




Gaia Girls=Party Girls=Bad Girls?? SIKE..hahha...love them mucho!

draaaained

despite getting a bid light headed with sherlyn late last night and goin to inn n out smelling like alcohol, i still managed to get through the dreaded day of interviews for the medical mission. met dayne at 8am to look over apps then interviews straight 9am-1:30pm with a half hour break in between. damn, we must of looked horrible. we wanted to get out of 515 and ended up sitting in front of eshleman so distraught at our job. i bet people were thinking, "dayam, they're having mad drama." haha. let me tell you though, it is NOT fun doing interviews, not because we're lazy, but because it puts you in a tough spot, especially with friends. we ended up deliberating until about 3pm. i hope people will understand our decisions. just gotta remind myself that no matter what, you cant please everyone. if i could, id give this job to someone else....definitely.

not to mention, i really wish i could be on that plane to philippines in january too. this sucks....everything sucks.

who's facilitating an hour long workshop tomorrow? dammit!! why? why? whyyyyyyyy???

this was fun!

i got excited when i saw my name on kat's xanga...jenn o. thats me riiight?? well here goes!

list 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as *minutes* it takes you to write the facts.here it goes:

1. i LOVE/am addicted to candy.
2. i may be put together on the outside, but inside im completey lost and broken...you have NO idea!
3. i hate being skinny
4. i eat salt with every fruit imaginable...it's damn good if you try it!
5. i love hot weather...socal girl for life.
6. i hardly say "i love you" to my parents...i kinda wish i did though.
7. i look up to my sister more than she knows it.
8. im infatuated with mtv reality shows. newlyweds and laguna beach are the best.
9. the only thing ill play in my car are slow jams.
10. i love animals...i can name most dog breeds i see on the street.
11. i enjoy my own company.
12. i tend to fall asleep during movies...ive gotten better at it though
13. sometimes i like to make myself sad on purpose.
14. i wish i had a raspy voice
15. i want my husband to serenade me on our wedding day, even if he cant sing for shit
16. people intimidate me.
17. if i could turn back time, i think id be at UCSD rather than berkeley.
18. i live by quotes
19. i have low self-esteem
20. i tend to overanalyze everything...im a thinker, sue me.

8 mintues: jo, madel, chandra...(fck who reads this??)....angelo, kristine a., mari, jely, sherlyn

overwhelmed...

really now...i woke up with MAD stress on my plate. so bad i did not even wanna get up. there's so much to do in the next 2-3 weeks its insane! school, PAHC, school, PAHC...plus everything else in between.


reading medical mission applications make me sad..i wish i could go too :(

cant wait for disneyland...reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally cant wait. finally get to get out of this berkeley bubble.

maybe ill practice some rentention tonight and head to the library instead of Thalassas??? HEH, we'll see.

i guess stress took over my high? dammit...i hope it comes back soon :*(

BENTO makes it allllll gooooood <3

"please let today be a good day"

went to sleep early with a mad headache, must have been all that candy i ate. so i wake up a little uneasy...dont know why? just one of them days i guess. i knew it wasnt gonna be good...i wish it was cause i jinxed myself instead of my damn instincts.

almost fell weak...but i stopped myself and instead vented to mari. yea, hopefully i get it back.

did i ever mention how much i love my physics professor? haha..that guy is damn hilarious. i seriously dont mind going to that hour and half lecture two days a week.

**OH shit, sherlyn!! BRB...gotta call that girl right now cause im bout to laugh my ass off....tell you bout it later!!

EDIT the next morning:
hahah..oh my! so i was at the library killing time during my last blog...minding my business and what not and who the fck sits next to me?? church boy! oh lord i must have looked like an idiot covering my mouth so that i wouldnt laugh out loud. that was a damn moment for you! summer times were good times :)

so midterm 1 is over...i think i did OK. could have been better. studied with a group at moffit (btw i hate that freakin library), last night. semi-productive? i love my IB 127 folks, they crack me up. i actually have friends in my classes now...why didnt i do that before? really though, i dont think people even started studying for the midterm until the night before. so that gives me an advantage of the whole weekend? hopefully!

again, my damn killer instincts!! i knew it was gonna be a bad day, and it was...kinda. broke the damn pinkyswear...on accident! boo, up until then i was winning. but i am glad to say there were no after-affects :)

nothing can break this high of mine...and dont you dare try!

jackpot!

finally found me some chocolate covered gummy bears!! ate the whole dang thing :( even had some cotton candy today on sproul courtesy josh. too many sweets...im addicted.

long days on campus suck ass.

brought baby love back to her home today...kinda sad. hmmm....

i love how some people can just make your day :)

due to popular demand...

SIKE! just playing..i think i love this thing too much to let it go. i admit ive been doing private entries....that will remain private!

eeeeeeeeeeeeenywaaaaaaaaaaaaayz.....................
here's my secret:


















coooool huh?! thats what a drunken night in the city with some crazy girls will do to ya!

-also brought baby love to church today for the blessing of the animals. it was definetly one of the most craziest church experiences ever. dogs everywhere barking, cats, a freakin chicken! quite a sight i tell ya. im glad to say she was the only turtle there :) look how big she got:




















January 2005




















October 2005
(thats not her real tank)

-my parents finally got the key to the new house! happy, excited....sad?? hmm...cant really decide. but im definitely happy for my moms and pops :)

-SIGH...midterm, medical mission, concert...too much!! but like i say...party hard, study harder!!

SORRY! just had to post

maybe i found my motivation?? :)

-went to my first 21&up club...HEH thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks girls! quite the experience ;p

-have a little secret...ill show you later

-pinkyswear....31 days!

-found my fckn sanctuary...i love it!