EH..BLEH..it's NOTHING...
"LONELY GIRL"-pink

WHY ME?! gosh..i hate how i'm feeling again. geez..PMS! it has to be. i'm just soo...sooo...I DONT KNOW! haha..like that made any sense. all these damn emotions..too much to deal with...anger for no reason, fustration, stress...worrying about what's gonna happen next or in the future. i'm tired having this PANIC feeling..like, i get soo scared that i'm gonna fail...and not just classes or whatever. but JUST LIFE..ya know? SIGH..i just feel like im losing myself. i used to be soo carefree and happy and CONFIDENT. now i'm just so conscious about everything. i dont' feel like anything anymore...i feel soo fake and like a hipocrite..not to mention one of the biggest asses in the world. I'M SO TIRED. home on a FRIDAY night, and believe it or not, i'm enojoying it. just wanna sit on my bed and think..ANALYZE everything goin on and how i'm feeling. yup...like the good ol' days in my room. maan, i dont' even have a room anymore. i'm back to sharing with my sister. too much thinking is not good though...definetly. umm yea...whatever. : /

anyways..watched "bowling for columbine" today cause sherlyn downloaded it. it was very sad and emotional and thought provoking. i dont understand why people result to hurting other people. dumb fCKS! also, joyce told me that she's scared of me. haha...maan, once again, JENN the INTIMIDATOR..argh. i need to learn how to "look nice"..thats my new goal.

i wonder...a lot..and I HATE IT! go away, please!

sorry, i just realized what drama this entry is...oh well...it's a blog..what do you expect?