2005 Recap??

Right about now I would do my annual year in review....but for 2005?? I'd much rather NOT. It was a year of crazy/mad drama, petty arguments, hurtful words, tears, broken hearts, empty promises, lies, and lost love. I should have known from the way it started. To sum it up...it was full of CHANGE. People don't like to admit that they've changed....but here i am saying it bluntly. I'm not the same person. Agressive, sarcastic, bitchy, emotional, vulnerable, loud, definitely more outgoing.....take it or leave it. Aside from all the drama for YO' MAMA, i didnt catch myself turning into this "party girl." I think ive drank and partied more this year than my last three years at berkeley combined. Oh well, bout time I lived it up! I swear I've been through more than my share of shit this year and I'm ready for a fresh start.....seriously. Thanks to everyone who made my year worthwhile and RIGHT through all the things that went WRONG.

roel: for breaking my heart over and over again and letting me go, so i could finally "LET GO." im sorry.

mari: for teaching me how to live the single life and being my 24/7 confidant

the roomies: for dealing with me, helping me, and then laughing at me. heart you bhetches!

mike: for reminding me that im worth something and making me smile again :)

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These were my 2005 resolutions:
1) GAIN the freshman 15 all over again
2) build a stronger heart
3) LIVE LIFE

-gaining the freshman 15..ummm, yea. that didnt work out too well with all the stress i had this year.
-a stronger heart? i think thats always going to be in the process.
-live life?? HELL YEA I DID! :D

so for 2006 i think im going to skip out on resolutions and instead always remember the things ive learned this year:

1) karma is a fat bitch!! and it hits you more than once...so watch out!
2) words are worth nothing without actions
3) you cant forget the past, but you can definitely ACCEPT it. if you don't, it will only kill you in the end.
4) all guys are the same??? im still hoping for the exception.
5) live in the present....cause thats where the fun is at!

"And I heard 'em say, nothin's ever promised tomorrow, today"

Happy New Year Folks!



2006....pleeeeease be a good one! lookin forward to even more good times, happy times, and lovely times :)

drunk in sd

fun drunken times last night in PB :) thanks guys for coming out to party...(especially madel and angelo! geez you guys!!) , and buying me drinks. $2 drinks are the best fckn invention ever!! its always good seeing folks from high school. can we get over the drama though??!

you know what sucks?? just when my parents allow me to live out my youth, they have to move us 45 mintues away from civilization...sucks for me to make the drive home at 2 in the AM. which also means i can "have fun," but not "too much fun." booooooo!

so im talking to mike last night around 3 in the morning and hear his brother in the background say, "she crawled out and fell in the sink." Right away, my heart drops and i KNOW he's talkin about Baby Love. She's such a little rascal. Thank God she was rescued before being chopped up for turtle soup in the grinder. Poor girl always does this whenever she hasnt seen me for awhile. i love her to death!

yaaay for Berkeley!


hahah...sorry earl, but this picture hella cracks me up. who's drunk??


im lazy...check out my album for the other pictures.

oh, i think they like me

thank you friends for calling/texts/IMs....heart you guys! spent the day chillen with the fam and eating at todai since i was free...love me my sushi!

so i think im gonna die of boredom. there's nothing to do in this house. one computer and one tv is what im surviving off of. my dad hogs the tv like no other and myspace, facebook, and blogs/xangas can only entertain you for so long. this sucks. driving down consumes gas like crazy, especially when driving back up the dayam mountain. cracks me up whenever im driving home and my ears get plugged. the highlights of my day consists of when slchino signs on or i hear that ugly ass bach cello ring tone. other than that, time is spent exploring boring-ass north sd.

random thought: remember being a kid and having mcdonalds being such a treat?? nowadays its more like, dayam...im fckn broke and hungry so lets go to mcdonalds.

i miss baby love....and maybe her turtle sitter too. i wonder how big she is now? actually kinda jealous of her cause she gets to see some fugly, sometimes hot, dude everyday. hahah :)

Who the Fuck is 22 years old today??

NOT ME!!!



Every year I look forward to my mom waking me up on my birthday by singing "haaaappy birDthday to you...haaaaaappy birDthday dear jenn jenn....haaaappy birDthday to you!" then she hops in bed with me. good to know she STILL does it. LOVELY...thanks mom for giving birth to me!

ps, im 21 FoooooooReeeeeeeeVeR! get it right!

baby it's cold outside

but not in SD!! haha...sorry for ya nor-cal-ers!

so far the break has been good. keepin busy doing this and that. the new house is fun. still getting the marble flooring and carpet done so we're stuck in the living room for now. all good...but can't wait to move into my OWN room! here's my little week in review:

-headed up to irvine with ruthie and jesse to chill with susan before she heads out to redding. didnt tell the parentals where i was heading so when my phone rang and the caller id read "dad's work" i kinda hesitated to pick up, but took the chance anyways. told him i was LA figuring id get in trouble anyways, and all he said was, "ya know there's gonna be traffic later." muahahah..thats a damn moment folks! my parents are either #1 finally accepting im a grown child, or #2 too busy thinking about this new house of ours. i think it's the latter, but im not complaining! :)


-since the wild animal park is now practically next door to us, the sibs and cousin decided to spend a day there. fun stuff? eh...the place is boring. fyi, the damn tram ride is 60 minutes long! learned a couple things though....like how missle toe is grown and the difference between an antler and horn. cool stuff i guess


-friday was ruthie's 21st so we went to rock bottom...saw a couple of folks and my cousins. not too poppin' but it was cool.


-christmas weekend was the merriest ever. dont recall the last time that ALL of my family were together. happy times ya'll. i love the craziness of filipinos...damn karaoke and taking the left overs to another auntie's house the next day. i may sound biased, but i think i have one of the most beautiful families ever! ;p


anyways...im lazy. check out pictures on my imagestation (link's on the right)

merry christmas erBreeeBody!

ps. i freakin LUB this girl!

4th year, Semester 1 OVER!

Just finished my last final...man does it feel good!

Feels like a good a time as any to reflect on the past semester. In one word it would be, "EMOTIONAL." And that's on school, family, friendships, relationships, social life. But it was still dayam fun!

Lots of pressure on school this semester, just trying to get my shit done. I think I did pretty well partying hard and studying harder when it came down to it. yea?? I hope so. I actually liked my classes, made friends for the first time, and spent hours in the library. good shit. Even though PAHC took over my life the last couple months, it was an experience to remember. Still can't believe I coordinated an event on campus...ain't that nuts?! Oh Mission Concert, how I love thee!

My family moved out of the old house and I'm bout to start a new life in valley center...hah. this better be good! Every time I talk to them they ALWAYS talk about my graduation...I just want to make them proud. I love my family...then end. *tear*

Building and re-building friendships was definitely a highlight this semester. Though some may have become a little tainted....can't do much but say, "thats life for ya!" Got a lot closer to the roomates....oh maan, love it! Wish we were this open a long time ago. hahaha...HILARIOUS!

Hmm...don't really wanna touch the subject of relationships. I don't think I've ever had this much drama with the opposite sex. Got myself into trouble a couple times, but let's not repeat that. When it comes down to it, I started the semester like this >:o and now I'm : ) so you should too!

And lastly, the social life has been too good to me. Being 21 is costly but worth the good times. Getting crunked every dang week this semester....(seriously)....all I can say is "cheers!" And apologies to the liver and parentals.

"Do not dwell in the past, do not dream of the future, concentrate the mind on the present moment. "

bleh...almost there!

missed out last night when ALL the roomies EXCEPT me celebrated the end of finals. fckers...sike! haha jp. im just jealous. love their drunken calls. somehow the whole apartment (plus mike) ended up on my top bunk bed causing a ruckus. i think thats the most action my bed has ever gotten...or has it?? HAHA JUST JOKING! couldnt sleep for shit last night so ended up getting out of bed at 3am to study more. bad choice cause i woke up at 10am.

It's 6pm....got a final tomorrow @ 8am and then at 12:30pm.....wish me luck!

maybe i should shower or somethin' : /

ps...i think i'm going to be forced to give Baby Love away. Makes me wanna cry cause i love that turtle soo much. SIGH. I wanna drop her off at the zoo where i KNOW she'll be taken care of and I can visit her whenever i want.

finals

dude...i have two consecutive fckN finals on monday and i can't study for shit right now!

errr...mother effer....


blah blah...i suck.

major picture updates

DnBs

Drinkin it up @ DnBs for Val's bday
First time EVER winning that stupid game! And i did it when i was under the influence?? haha






















Mission Concert
Dayne and I after the concert...can you tell how exhausted we are??
Senior Show
arent they sexy??
Norwin loves "our humps"
Seniors! :)


with some of my favorite 3rd years

the end :)

giving them something to talk about, real talks, and cookies in bed at 5am...love, love, love it!

whenever there's an UP...there's always a DOWN

never thought id be the one to fck up....guess there's always a first for everything. and this semester says it ALL....it was full of "firsts"

....and regrets


:(

here's another..."oh mother fcker!"

things are just sooo NOT RIGHT, right now.

it's been craaazy

Senior Show: can't believe it's over! even more, i cant believe i actually performed! haha...it was mad fun though :)

PAHC dinner/gift exchange @ CPK: i think we were the most belligerent people ever. our waiter was the coolest. hooked sherlyn and i up with an extra 3 spring rolls and loaf of bread..so we hooked him up with a lil somethin' somethin too . someone please explain to me why 90% of our white elephant gits were alcohol related?

Mari's party bus: even more belligerent. i cant believe i drank that much :( passed out on the bus..thanks to everyone who took care of my drunkass...especially madel and mike for coming over at 4 am. errrrrrrr.........ya know how you're drunk and dont think about consequences?? yea....let me leave it at that.

so i spent the whole freakin saturday throwing up...literally.

pics up later....for now, its time to study for finals.

long overdue

so i guess the hype of mission concert is all over. comments?? despite running my ass around all day, answering questions/phone calls, blah blah... i think it went well...really well. none of the performers sucked, we didn't go over time too much, our intro was the cutest thing ever (even though i hella messed up...sorry, other things on my mind!), it was extremely organized (as said by Bento's mangaer ;> ) and i THINK people enjoyed themselves?? I admit throughout the concert I just wanted it to be over cause i was soo exhausted from the day. and really though...the flowers made my night. good to be recognized for all your hard work. kinda sad its over...KINDA!

I didn't get to take any pictures :(

I came home and seriously ran to the couch to get me some relaxation. wasnt feeling the afterparty but ended up going and having a fun time. oh maaan...6 shots in like an hour and a half?? hahaha...2 malibus, BREAK, kamikaze and scooby snack, BREAK, and ended the night with 2 petrones thanks to michael and ali :) mike and madel carried me home...hahah. then past out for the first time EVER in my life. hmm...lets not have that happen again ;p

next day spent in SF shopping for christmas gifts that i wanna keep for myself. madel and michael got to see goapole perform...punkasses.

random:
-i lost my earring that my mom gave me...its the first pair of earrings my dad bought her. hmm...maybe i shouldnt mention it.
-starting to feel sick?? be careful what you wish for
-things happen for a reason


And now, i leave you with this (jacked from my cousin):
"behind every bitch, there's a guy that made her that way."
HEH! soo f'N true!

what now??

Mission Concert is over...

more details later...

for now, all I have to say is THANK YOU...you know who are :)

Ready or Not....

MISSION CONCERT IS HERE!!

excited, worried, stressed, scared, praying things go smoothly...


God gave us a beautiful day, let's hope for an even better concert!

3months of hard work...let's see what PUMP is really made of :)

breath in...breath out....we can do this!


ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....squealing with delight!

Already??

can't believe it's already december! My faaaaaaavorite month. All the good things in life stuffed into 31 days :) birthday, christmas, new years eve...

today's horoscope: "Don't feel guilty if you have done youre best." suits the mood from this whole week.

its been a freakin roller coaster....stressed, not stressed...then back to stressed.

sorry for the emo drama. ill be good saturday night. thank you.

did i mention i hate emails and phone calls right now??

about this concert...

so i think im more stressed about the fact that everyone seems so calm and on point....shouldn't we be frantic and busy?? i hope its cause we did everything early rather than last minute or us forgetting something or people being lost....oh loooord.

our MC cancelled on us....doesnt that suck? could result to dayne and i hosting?? haha, that would be a trip!

i currently hate emails...reading them, sending them, thinking about them. i used to love emails too...how sad.

my phone has never rang so much in my life...every time i hear it, i hope its not something to do with the concert. but then again, when do i ever get my wishes granted?

for now, i think im good. especially after today's core meeting. if you would like to criticize me, please do cause i WANT to know if im doing something wrong!

last note...everyone is getting sick. when is it my turn??

oh motherfcker!

concert is THIS saturday...

crunchtime...

STRESS!!!

please dont rain.....pleeeeeeeeeeeeease!!

apology ahead of time for being a bhetch :(

re-cap

can't believe im already back in the bay. booooooooooooooo! well here's to three more weeks until sd again... thanksgiving was fun. family time of course...i love my cousins! why do we have to grow up?? darius and chynna are now on morse's basketball team....wow, when did that happen? i ate soo much its insane. had to make up for my 3 months of starvation in berkeley. who's back up to 100lbs??? hahah. i swear my stomach is never too full when im home. spent most of the time packin up the old house...got a moving truck and everything. still kinda surreal. it was good times with the brothers and sister going through old stuff and laughing at our dumbasses. i love it. :sniff: im really gonna miss that house.

besides moving out, which pretty much consumed my stay in sd, actually got to go to downtown with my cousins and meet up with the entire morse class of 2002. ran into my best friend from sixth grade whom i seriously havnet seen since..nuts! i swear i drank sooo much last night, didnt even spend anything :) Thanks to my cousin...love it! definitely good times reuniting with folks and dancing my drunk ass off...cant wait for more!

my mom is crazy...didnt even know she was making a face too.


the siblings posing @ our new house.


caroline loves me...she just doen't know it yet.


introducing the cutest, most fearless two-year old with the loudest hair, EVER.


@ rock bottom with my cousin and sister.


i miss kristine!


Welcome home to Valley Center, Ca.....

san diego!!

finally made it home! and dayam does it feels good :D surprisingly there was no traffic going to the airport so we got there early. sat and ate some overpriced pastries with mike. came back to a house full of food...sinigang never tasted soo wonderful in my mouth and nothing beats hans and harry's fruit strudel...feels nice to have a full tummy.

so everyone and their momma's left on tuesday leaving my sorry butt behind. having an empty aparment kinda sucks. thanks to mike for keeping me company. who doesnt like it when a guy cooks her dinner?? then spent the night watching the american music awards, taking shots, and s'mores @ midnight. actually slept early for once. good times with the chinese boy ;>

hmm...plans for break?? re-reading "the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe" so i can watch the movie when i get back, major fam time, shopping, dnbs?, and moving out of my old house :( my mom says we have to be gone by this weekend........how sad! all this in 3 days?! err...

some random guy gave me his number at the airport...hahaha. oh loooord.

i kinda...sorta...just a little...tiny bit...MISS that boy.

Happy Thanksgiving folks!

soooo tired...but worth the good times!

harry potter was an adorable movie...i actually stayed up thank you very much! crazy how folks dress up though...even older ones.

friday was long and eventful...costco run to get the youngins alcohol. hahah, jp! who doesnt love that place? i swear its one of the funnest places on earth. then went to the Big Game Bonfire for the first time with a bunch of good folks. jordan's party later that night...hmm...it was more than awkward with the his ex there. thank God for my fellow outcast and drea to keep me company, seriously though. came home early for whatever reason mike wanted to. slept at 4:30am becaaaause???? hahah...

saturday was our last PAHC-ing session...how sad. im gonna miss those aunties and uncles. came home and worked on a lab report while watching the Big Game by myself...we won! the class of 06' must be some good luck or something cause for the past 4 years we've beat stanford. attempted to watch movies but failed.

H&M opened this past weekend....all the busy-ness made me NOT want to shop. grabbed whatever i saw and bought it. im a "buy and return" kinda gal. good times in the city with madel and mike...ask madel about her new bracelet. HAHAH. JP

late night/early morn talks are what i look forward to ;>

ps...i go home in 2 days!!! looooooooooove it!
some school pride for ya!

now we ALL have black hair...natur-AL (kinda)

this week sucks MAJOR ass

"when the power of love surpasses the love of power, then there will be peace." -this was written at the end of my anatomy midterm. interesting....true...uh hmmmm.....

who's watching harry potter tomorrow at midnight??? hahaha...(this is coming from someone who has never read a book and barely even finished the first movie. dont ask why she's going)

ps. i love berkeley weather right now. can't believe im wearing a tank top and slippers in the middle of november ;>

vent

on campus 11am-11pm

irritated because...
-dont like last minute things
-dont like being called out
-dont like feeling like there's no time in the world
-dont like when i have soo much crap to do and think about
-dont like feeling everything is fault, even when it isnt

-i DO like when people make me forget about things ;> even if its just for a second.

THANK YOU FOR LISTENING

AND THANK YOU ALL FOR SUPPORTING PAHC (CORE AND COMMUNITY)...BEING THERE, DOING LAST MINUTE THINGS...THE SENATE FOR LOVIN' US SO MUCH AND ALL THEIR SNAPS. SERIOUSLY...THANK YOU :MUAH:

photo narration....Sherlyn's Week Celebration

Happy Birthday Sherlyn! Midnight "surprise" brownie, quotes, and good company.

After her first night at the bar....i guess she had fun?? haha.
Night #2 @ Thalassas's....bought sherlyn her first liquid cocaine. Night #3 just me and the birthday girl @ Thalassa for the "Bacardi Party"....first time we let a stranger buy us a round. amaretto sours...love it! Then off to the PAHC sleepover for more drinks and good times. Night #4 @ TGI Sushi...32 friends, good food, crazy sake bombing.
After dinner at our place...things got a little crazy...
We decided to pay her back for all the kisses she's given us throughout the years.

you know you wanna see more:
http://www.imagestation.com/member/?name=jennx285

other than that....bummed it all day today like crazy couch potatoes with mike: pizza, usc vs. cal game, and laguna beach maration from 11am to 5pm...i dont think ive ever watched tv for that long since high school...loved it. too bad we lost the game baaaaad. AND i have a bruise.

i should seriously start studying...

the time has finally come..

Happy 21st Birthday to the roomie Sherlyn Manzano!!!


cant wait to hit up the bars with this girl, it's gonna be nuts!



**flowers are always a good thing, especially when its a tulip ;>

i miss chandra.
i <3 talks with jo.
haha...madel was all over that night.

im spruuuuuuuuung

thats the song of the weekend.."im spruuuuung, got me doing things i'd never dooooo" gotta love it.

clubbin fundraiser at boondocks with pahc....good times despite the wack ass dj who played every song twice and the 18+ crowd that looked like they all snuck in with fake IDs. I was lookin through chris j.'s pictures and noticed that ALL of them were of us sitting down. hahah...damn pilipinos takin over the booths. at least we made $447 off presale tix!! thanks ya'll for supporting pahc :muah: i think the best part of the night was dennys @3am. damn laffy taffy! knocked out like crazy afterwards.

Kips on saturday...went to get footage for our dj presentation. chilled with mike and madel the whole night pointing at drunk fcks who danced a little too raunchy in my opinion. bay area dancing is kinda cute ;>

so thats that...madel and i worked on our presentation all day sunday until 4am and didnt even get to present due to technical difficulties. bhetches. dammit, now people are gonna copy us and make a video too. errrrrrr....

midterm this week....mission meeting....the actual concert....cant wait til wednesday night.

happy belated to my "not so little" brother darius...he's 14 already?? kinda got emo when talkin to the fams and they were on their way to east buffet. thanksgiving needs to hurry up!

ps...baby love escaped her tank twice, two days in a row AND at the same time. thanks to her rescuers madel and sherlyn for saving her. seriously though, either a ghost is trying to take her away from me OR she just misses me when im gone all day. ill go for the latter.

Tell me, is that possible for her to jump out of? Damn, she is special. im drunk and he's red @ boondocks

i just spent half an hour cleaning baby love's tank and THEN she decides to take two big ass peices of shit?! dammit. i still love her though.

ps...today is Roenn's 2nd birthday. i still love that little animal too.

random doings

-being spontaneous and random has to be one of the best things in the world

-BABY LOVE is baaaaaaaaaaaaaack. i swear i can sit and stare at her forever, or until i have to go to my room and do hw.

-sushi house with madel and kat was ....yummy. havent had good sushi in a hot one

-our project on the sex appeal of djs isnt going in the direction we had hoped...but speakin to the djs at the record store was more than interesting.

-my first time chillen at bears lair and we got a free pitcher of beer. actually finished my glass! that was a proud moment....i think im on my way. hopefully!

-im happy. i needed someone to remind of how things are suppose to be and suppose to feel. and i'm glad it aint you.

Happy Halloween!!

or not...cause it sure freakin slipped my mind. amidst everything going on, it could at least FEEL like halloween. dont you hate how holidays lose their feeling as you get older? yea, i wish i was 10 instead of 21 right about now.

im soo down to go back to disneyland if you are!

my date and i in front of the magical castle...hahha

we make thursday nights fun!

so sick of love songs..

wooord to your mothA! mari got me hooked to this song "SO SICK" by Ne-Yo, download now!!

lots of good stuff goin on..senior kick it @ Thalassa's turned into , MMMJ kick it. actually played pool for the first time, hahah. mike and i won...or not, cause both times we hit the white ball in with the eight ball. can i just tell you that mari was some hot shit that night? geez...guys were literally flocking to our pool table. great night as always with those girls :)

funniest joke of the night from madel, "see mike, i understand chinese."

friday had dinner at skates by the bay...maybe the most expensive dinner ive had with people other than my family. nuts. too bad my freakin seafood boil was more like gumbo :( actually skipped out on partying and slept at midnight...felt toooo goood!

this brought me to the best saturday in a long ass time. actually didnt have to wake up early for anything, finally had the time to clean this dirty ass, dust and hair infested apartment. pajamas all day long...jealous huh? was actually productive in spending 6 hours tryin to come up with a flyer for the concert...i love it.

that night was HILARIOUS...10 fingers and hot seat with four people....oh maaaan...i love love love it.

played volleyball tonight cause they needed a girl. brings back memories...maybe i should have just signed up. i miss it.

SIGH....overwhelmed with REALITY.

im a dumb girl

sue me...i would!

good times with sherlyn today...love it! it was a one time deal...

sorry if i have feelings. sorry if i have a heart. sorry if i care. i wish i didnt.

REALLY NOW..

there must be some conspiracy against me. NOT COOL motherfckers! geeeeeeeez...haha. i guess im the only one in this world that karma pays attention to?? hmmm...FIX IT!


anyways...just wanna say that friends make the world go round' <3

on: you're prolly in the shower but i'm going to work out soon. but i just wanted to say that i really really HATE what he's doing to you. don't forget that you're a wonderful, beautiful person and he's a total jerk for hurting you. i know everyone tells you that he's not even worth it etc. but i know you still care bout him but seriously, be strong. i'm here for you.


here's my new saying: you can't help the way you feel, but you CAN definitely help the way you act. THINK ABOUT IT.

i'm not crazy, just a little UNWELL

damn...here goes my emo day of the week. soo many times today i wanted to cry. im a dumb girl.

i just realized my cell phone bill is going to be nuts...sorry mom and dad.

mission concert is one month away. fck.

i feel sooo alone in this big bad world.

i wanna hide under a rock.

ever question why things happen the way they do??

yea, it sucks.

the fantasmic song makes me feel better.

ps...i miss my baby love.

smiles all around :)

disneyland was freakin wonderful! felt like a little girl, especially during fantasmic. i swear i was smiling and clapping the whole time..even almost shedded a tear. fireworks were pretty too :) good times spent with good friends and good laughs. ahhh...i love love LOVE it! wish it didnt have to end so fast. right when i got home i downloaded disney songs like crazy...but the whole weekend i sang:

Someday my prince will come
Someday I'll find my love
And how thrilling that moment will be
When the prince of my dreams comes to me

magical!! haha

guess what souvenirs we all got? haha..shot glasses, duh! Disneyland really is the happiest place on earth.

friendship games was the best out of my college experiences...even won ourselves 3 out of the 5 games. the game that madel and i coached was the hardest...dammit, but our team did well. saw some old folks from high school i havent seen in foreeeever! they both said i look different. hopefully its not a bad different?? oh well...ran the whole day on 30 minutes of sleep. hotel situation sucked ass. kicked it at a friend's house in pamona, s'mores and daquiries and beer. glad to say all i had was one bottle of daquire. could it be im winding down on this streak of alcohol every week?? after, we were soo tired we ALL knocked out at midnight. haha..sleep never felt soo good.

the drive back was nuts! madel, sherlyn, norwin, and i stayed up the whole time sharing embarrassing childhood stories and asking random questions. so when we saw berkeley approaching, we all kinda got sad :(

i dont think ive ever laughed soo much in one weekend. thanks ya'll! it was theeee best getaway from this shit town berkeley. (k, maybe im over exaggerating on the shit town.)

comments:
-next time i go to disneyland, im definitely going with a significant other...hahah
-the lollipop and soundtrack were a nice gesture
-a home viewing of cinderella and chocolate covered gummy bears were a great way to end a great weekend...thanks! :)


feeling....good.

ps. told you so. i can be a lot of things, but i know im NO FOOL. bhetch.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!

FINALLY!!!! I'M GOIN TO DISNEYLAND :D


i love love love it!

peace out ya'll.....ill be at the happiest place on earth!
...and friendship games!



maybe ill come home with prince charming?? hahah


"how to be a gentleman for dummies"..it works, haha

great great great

disneyland is soo close yet soo far. lets go already dammit!!

so i was kinda random this morning. couldnt focus on my lab write up so i took a shower and went to get a haircut. ok, maybe not so random cause ive been planning on getting one for weeks now. and i loooooooooooooove it!! i had the best hairdresser ever...soo good i tipped her 5 bucks cause she still kept the length on my hair just like i wanted. feels good to have fresh cut healthy hair. now i can actually look down at my hair and smile :)

storytime: so while i was having my hair cut, another lady comes in complaining about her hair. apparently it used to be as long as her lower back, but over vacation in LA it was so hot she had to cut it up to her shoulder...then she added, "plus i was upset at my husband." haha, the hairdresser and i kinda chuckled to ourselves. a few moments later her husband walked in with the most adorable 2 year old. we couldnt help but stare at him and smile. i thought it was cute.

so yes...i bought another freakin bag of chocolate covered gummy bears. im horrible :)

the weather outside is nasty. kinda suits the mood. puuuuuuuuurfect. makes me wanna sit at home and fall asleep on the couch with a mug in one hand while playing a romantic comedy. i wouldnt mind cuddling either...with my pillow and cheetah blanket ;>


ps. i think i like jason now.

EMOnday

been feelin emo last couple days...lame, i know. i now own a playlist called, "because im sad." haha...maybe i shouldnt have shared that with you guys. oh well, i dont care. so came home for my 2 hour break to have mari IM me with the quickness and say she's bored. i run my ass to slc to have ourselves a therapy session. whew...i needed that. thanks mari for making my days better.

i also bought myself yet ANOTHER bag of chocolate covered gummy bears...(black and white) to make myself better. and dammit, they did! they ran out pretty quick though.

besides that, today was the best midterm of my life. i love my professor, she tells you every single answer in review :) anatomy is greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeat.

i have a new perspective on libraries. fck libraries.

lots of songs on repeat.

can you keep up?

:SIGH:

physics midterm is over...hope it went well. broke my promise of no drinking til friday and did some bar hoppin' with the seniors to celebrate the end of a midterm thursday night. mucho fun ya'll! here's my goal: acquire the taste of beer before age 22. that gives me...2 months?? haha. hot damn. after the bars we still managed to drive ourselves all the way to daly city for some 24 hour filipino food...topsilog was just like home :) MMmmm....

bowling with p4, pahc, and pasae was cool. surprised at how many people showed up...good shit. pre-partied cause thats just what we seem to do nowadays. didnt bowl though...i dont like bowling.

PAHCing session was sooo much fun on saturday! hahah...love the aunties and uncles. they gave us a box of tampons to take home...puuuuurfect! err...i really really wanna go to the medical mission :( studied on a saturday night...i needed to tone it down. rewarded ourselves with a blockbuster rental: The Amityville Horror. Just like the original...didnt ever think i'd watch a scary movie with a guy who screamed more than me...HAHA :)

mcdonalds breakfast, chillin/tanning on the grass, bbq, dodgeball, laundry, and books sums up the weekend.

"suck it up and accept it!"...FINE!!

i wish i was having as much fun as it looks...cant keep up.....NEED TO SLOW MY ROLL!! i thought this would make it easier but i guess NOT. :/

yea..im a bitter...so what?

oh what a night!....weekend!

hmm...dont even know where to start. again, i think ive been having more fun than school.

friday was chimichandra's long awaited party. before that, sherlyn, mari, and i were watching "save the last dance" talkin bout how lazy we were and blah blah. funny how we always get like that before going out. then mari started playing beauty parlor and did all our hair and make up...taking shots in between. hahah! love it! walked to the party pretty buzzed and the rest of the night was just flowing with good times! didnt know washing machines could bring people together?? ended up bringing home our new friends....oh maan....definitely a night to remember in soo many ways...

saturday was a chill day...shopping, first time eating at goldilocks (i know, right?!), playing pyramid with the roomies plus the mikes...hmmm....

frienship games picnic the next day...can you believe madel and i are fckN coaches?? haha...still crackes me up. i have a feeling its going to be a good one this year :)

oh yea...did the dreaded fortune cards. i hate those cause theyre always true...kinda got a good fortune this time??...4 cards..perfect...we'll see how things go.

SIGH...roles are reveresed. shouldnt i be happy or something?




Gaia Girls=Party Girls=Bad Girls?? SIKE..hahha...love them mucho!

draaaained

despite getting a bid light headed with sherlyn late last night and goin to inn n out smelling like alcohol, i still managed to get through the dreaded day of interviews for the medical mission. met dayne at 8am to look over apps then interviews straight 9am-1:30pm with a half hour break in between. damn, we must of looked horrible. we wanted to get out of 515 and ended up sitting in front of eshleman so distraught at our job. i bet people were thinking, "dayam, they're having mad drama." haha. let me tell you though, it is NOT fun doing interviews, not because we're lazy, but because it puts you in a tough spot, especially with friends. we ended up deliberating until about 3pm. i hope people will understand our decisions. just gotta remind myself that no matter what, you cant please everyone. if i could, id give this job to someone else....definitely.

not to mention, i really wish i could be on that plane to philippines in january too. this sucks....everything sucks.

who's facilitating an hour long workshop tomorrow? dammit!! why? why? whyyyyyyyy???

this was fun!

i got excited when i saw my name on kat's xanga...jenn o. thats me riiight?? well here goes!

list 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as *minutes* it takes you to write the facts.here it goes:

1. i LOVE/am addicted to candy.
2. i may be put together on the outside, but inside im completey lost and broken...you have NO idea!
3. i hate being skinny
4. i eat salt with every fruit imaginable...it's damn good if you try it!
5. i love hot weather...socal girl for life.
6. i hardly say "i love you" to my parents...i kinda wish i did though.
7. i look up to my sister more than she knows it.
8. im infatuated with mtv reality shows. newlyweds and laguna beach are the best.
9. the only thing ill play in my car are slow jams.
10. i love animals...i can name most dog breeds i see on the street.
11. i enjoy my own company.
12. i tend to fall asleep during movies...ive gotten better at it though
13. sometimes i like to make myself sad on purpose.
14. i wish i had a raspy voice
15. i want my husband to serenade me on our wedding day, even if he cant sing for shit
16. people intimidate me.
17. if i could turn back time, i think id be at UCSD rather than berkeley.
18. i live by quotes
19. i have low self-esteem
20. i tend to overanalyze everything...im a thinker, sue me.

8 mintues: jo, madel, chandra...(fck who reads this??)....angelo, kristine a., mari, jely, sherlyn

overwhelmed...

really now...i woke up with MAD stress on my plate. so bad i did not even wanna get up. there's so much to do in the next 2-3 weeks its insane! school, PAHC, school, PAHC...plus everything else in between.


reading medical mission applications make me sad..i wish i could go too :(

cant wait for disneyland...reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally cant wait. finally get to get out of this berkeley bubble.

maybe ill practice some rentention tonight and head to the library instead of Thalassas??? HEH, we'll see.

i guess stress took over my high? dammit...i hope it comes back soon :*(

BENTO makes it allllll gooooood <3

"please let today be a good day"

went to sleep early with a mad headache, must have been all that candy i ate. so i wake up a little uneasy...dont know why? just one of them days i guess. i knew it wasnt gonna be good...i wish it was cause i jinxed myself instead of my damn instincts.

almost fell weak...but i stopped myself and instead vented to mari. yea, hopefully i get it back.

did i ever mention how much i love my physics professor? haha..that guy is damn hilarious. i seriously dont mind going to that hour and half lecture two days a week.

**OH shit, sherlyn!! BRB...gotta call that girl right now cause im bout to laugh my ass off....tell you bout it later!!

EDIT the next morning:
hahah..oh my! so i was at the library killing time during my last blog...minding my business and what not and who the fck sits next to me?? church boy! oh lord i must have looked like an idiot covering my mouth so that i wouldnt laugh out loud. that was a damn moment for you! summer times were good times :)

so midterm 1 is over...i think i did OK. could have been better. studied with a group at moffit (btw i hate that freakin library), last night. semi-productive? i love my IB 127 folks, they crack me up. i actually have friends in my classes now...why didnt i do that before? really though, i dont think people even started studying for the midterm until the night before. so that gives me an advantage of the whole weekend? hopefully!

again, my damn killer instincts!! i knew it was gonna be a bad day, and it was...kinda. broke the damn pinkyswear...on accident! boo, up until then i was winning. but i am glad to say there were no after-affects :)

nothing can break this high of mine...and dont you dare try!

jackpot!

finally found me some chocolate covered gummy bears!! ate the whole dang thing :( even had some cotton candy today on sproul courtesy josh. too many sweets...im addicted.

long days on campus suck ass.

brought baby love back to her home today...kinda sad. hmmm....

i love how some people can just make your day :)

due to popular demand...

SIKE! just playing..i think i love this thing too much to let it go. i admit ive been doing private entries....that will remain private!

eeeeeeeeeeeeenywaaaaaaaaaaaaayz.....................
here's my secret:


















coooool huh?! thats what a drunken night in the city with some crazy girls will do to ya!

-also brought baby love to church today for the blessing of the animals. it was definetly one of the most craziest church experiences ever. dogs everywhere barking, cats, a freakin chicken! quite a sight i tell ya. im glad to say she was the only turtle there :) look how big she got:




















January 2005




















October 2005
(thats not her real tank)

-my parents finally got the key to the new house! happy, excited....sad?? hmm...cant really decide. but im definitely happy for my moms and pops :)

-SIGH...midterm, medical mission, concert...too much!! but like i say...party hard, study harder!!

SORRY! just had to post

maybe i found my motivation?? :)

-went to my first 21&up club...HEH thaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanks girls! quite the experience ;p

-have a little secret...ill show you later

-pinkyswear....31 days!

-found my fckn sanctuary...i love it!

;> :*( : /

right now i hate myself...(for various reasons) and i apologize a millions times to everyone i brought down with me.

i need a retreat away from "life," or Berkeley if you will. SAVE ME if you can!!


no more myspace, no more facebook...

and sadly enough, no more blog. why? because i think this thing has become too pessimistic. maybe one day ill get the motivation to talk about the good stuff instead of dwelling on the bad..that'll be the day.

here's to school, fixing my fcked up head, and bringing back the dorky, little girl who started her freshman year at Berkeley 3 years ago, only this time she'll have a better head on her shoulders. (i dyed my hair back to black...that should be a good start right?? ;p)



im sad, i love this thing. but as they say in life, "all good things must come to an end."

not my fckn day

#1 woke up to sun...dressed in capris and a tank top only have to the sun go away to leave me cold as heck

#2 got the monthly visitor

#3 CRAMPS

#4 lost my eraser

#5 couldnt find any chocolate covered gummi bears

#6 TRIED to dye my hair by myself.....
























DAYAM i suck :(

ahhh...feels good

i think one of the best feelings is crossing items off on my planner...ALL of em' :)

.prettygirl.

finally taking away the cake.

"killer instincts"...literally.

because sharing is caring

IF A MAN WANTS YOU

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Share this with other ladies. You'll make someone smile, another rethink her choices, and another woman prepare.

They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them, and an entire lifetime to forget them.

-taken from somewhere

party hard, study hard-er

that's my saying, but i think this week i practiced the opposite. oh geez, my liver and my bank account (ie the moms and pops) need to forgive me. 5 nights straight...twas a week to remember...

1. tuesday: henry's "2 for $5" (how could you not?!), then blakes for the runbutan fundraiser where we spent pretty much the whole night at the bar. good seeing the kuya again. aww, all his adings are drinking legally now! the only comment i have to say for the rest of the night is "sorry."
2. wednesday: mari came over so we headed over to the pool hall again. had my first shot at the bar...kamikazes are sooo goooooood :) my new fave. great times chillen
3. thursday: pool hall night #2...reunited with marc and labib. best time drunk at a bar ever! seriously good times ya'll. i wish i took pictures of us. ended up throwing up when i got home :(
4. friday: "make out party"...hah, can't believe people believed me. had a little kick-back with the folks again. attempted a beer bong and failed miserably. oh well.
5. saturday: jimmy and esther's 21st...first time @ bears lair. glad to say the only taste of alcohol i had was a sip of jimmy's beer. being with them makes me miss the dorms soo much. not to mention the roomie drea...aww, i miss her so much. now its 3 out of 3! (well currently 2 out of 3).

so now im here....tired as fck. despite all this galavanting, i still managed to wake up at 8am everyday to do schoolwork. gotta give me credit for that!

oh yea, first PAHCing session was great! thanks ya'lls for coming out :) soo much to do for PAHC, it makes me crazy sometimes. but i still love it.

NO MORE TIL FRIDAY! promise.

706 freshman roomates

Gaia Girls

im sad and you're not fair

1) this week's physics hw has no hints.

2) i bought a fake snake to scare people with....it hardly scared anybody. weak reactions from madel, roel, norman, and kay ann. that's four times the disappointment. errr...i knew i should have done it to sherlyn.

3) its as cold as the north pole in berkeley. you know what that means? i need to go shopping!

4) i missed laguna beach last night.

5) i was right. i knew it would stop.

BehindTheseHazelEyes....i heart kelly

becasue they always make me smile:
















can we go to disneyland already??