i dont really have anything to blog..im just stalling on homework...but here's whats goin on in my NOT-so-interesting life:

-went to the ortho and now my teeth hurt like a bitch!
-hella hungry...but teeth hurt too much to eat..soup is tiring
-my brother is following my ASB footstepts and running for jr vp....good shit
-express had my dress after all...yaay for me! that made my freakin day!
-applying for staff position on PASS..im hella scared
-last PASS general meeting...how sad
-madel french tipped my nails...my first time ever
-semi formal on friday....yaay! can't wait! it's high school all over again ;>
-raymond is coming to visit this weekend ;D he's my first visitor at Cal

mood: happy and excited ;>

saturday

i woke up early after sleeping late AGAIN cause i can't sleep, and went shopping with my cousin for my dress...didn't find anything though. i'm losing hope. i have no dress : / argh..whatever. so i got back and walked around telegraph and bancroft with drea to see if i could find anything..but i didnt. then i took her to get her eyebrows threaded as her bday gift from me. and when we got home we tried doing it on earl's leg hairs..hahah...its not as easy as it looks. but yea...had no time to sleep at all cause we went out to eat at mel's diner for drea's bday..it was cool cause her friends from UCSB came up and surprised her...then got back and everyone got ready to party..but i went to my friend erwin's place instead of the frats with drea. and for some reason..i didn't wanna party. it was sad...i looked like the little bitch on the couch who didn't wanna be there. i dont know what was wrong with me...didnt wanna drink, dance, or socialize. and everyone kept asking what was wrong but i didnt know. i guess i pushed myself to the limit and was just exhausted. no real sleep ever since wednesday night...so i was headed home but ended up chillen at jelly's place with everyone..it was better than erwin's crowded apartment. met someone new..roel from union city...pretty cool guy. chopped it up til 6 in the morning..so again no sleep...now i'm like madel. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER EDWIN! & TO MY ROOMATE DREA! (4/26)

so today i went to SF again...but this time for educational purposes. we took a tour with my pilipino class around the city's historical pilipino sites. i think everyone was pretty surprised and enlightened at the things we saw and learned today...it was hella cool..it makes you rethink what youre really looking at. soo much stuff went down in SF that goes unrecognized and i'm glad i had the opportunity to look at things from another perspective...the pilpino perspective. it just makes me want to share everything to the world...like, "hey did you know jose rizal stayed at this hotel in 1888?" craaaazy! it's moments like this that make me glad i went to berkeley. i dont think i would have grown as much culturally had i gone to UCSD. then we ate at jollibee...me and madel tore that shit up! Mmm..hadn't had pancit palabok in soo long! the trip was soo fun ;>

and now..my sleeping patterns are JACKED! geez..i can't seem to sleep comfortably anymore..sucks cause i love sleeping

so the rest of the day was freakin great...even though i had no sleep whatsoever...went shopping for semi-formal dresses in SF with my roomates! haha..good stuff...we had fun. im still not settled on my dress though and they got some pretty cute ones. hmm..then we had some oh so great steak and orange shrimp at the DC..how many times does that happen?! haha..and now..my whole floor is getting drunk..SIGH...peer pressure i tell ya! i'm a little woozy in the head...no more though. i still have shit to do tonight

all-nighter

look...6am..and im up doing a paper. we had an asian am midterm party..woopty doo! chris got done before we did and he's knocked out on lora's bed. drea is still working on finishing up. and me..i say FCK IT! i already exceeded the 3 pages and practically have 4...argh, whatever! i'm out..good morning

why do i have jury duty?! geeeeeeez....i already postponed the one i got in SD cause i was gonna be in Berkeley..and now i have one in oakland while i'm goin back to SD...why are they following me?! i bet they think i'm lying about me not living in the county. hahaha...ok..thats it.

ps..i'm happy and glad ;>

crazy, tiring, FUN weekend!

Friday: worked on PCN set forever and a day til 10. then ate and went to hang out at unit 2. i wanted to go home early but then i couldn't. drea called me and told me that our building was evacuated cause of a fire. some dumb ass lit the trash chute on fire. and our dorms being high rises, the smoke took over the top floors and stunk up our place. we went back at 2:30 when they were supposed to be open, but it was still closed. so norwin, chris and me went to mari's place till we were let in at almost 4 in the freakin morning.
Saturday:PCN was tight. next year i wanna be in it for sure. it's just hella cool to see your culture being portrayed on stage, i felt proud. then afterwards we ate and got ready for the after PAArty. crazy stuff maan...we got charter buses to take us to a club in SF. it's weird cause we were allowed to drink openly on the buses...i mean, how many times do you get to be on a bus getting faded with everyone?! and we were hella hyped up and loud. good times for sure! i had a lot of fun dancing too...it's been awhile. i was really sleepy though. so when we got back to berkeley at 2:30 i ate real quick cause i was so hungry and went to bed.
Sunday: HAPPY EASTER! maan, we were all down cause we wanted to be at home eating good food with our families. my mom all called me sayin they were goin to church and then eat at D&B...sigh...all we did was go to church and eat at the DC.

now back to the school life....midterm and an essay due this week..argh!

top 10 reasons guys suck
10. they are never satisfied
9. they are afraid of commitment (a classic)
8. they are like parking spots, the good ones are taken and all you are left with are the crappy handicap ones.
7. they have trouble expressing their true feelings
6. they think with the wrong head
5. they lead you to believe that they like you, and then just want to be "friends"
4. they make you cry
3. the ugly ones like you (or ones that dont match your type!)
2. the hot ones are either taken, gay, or dead
1. they are just too damn dense
-copyright from rhea ;>

in reference to my top ten list of why guys suck...
JSD00638: see, when girls go out looking for their type or finding their type
JSD00638: they get dissapointed
j e n n x2 85: haha
j e n n x2 85: i feel you on that
JSD00638: they need to either A. change their so called "type" or B. give people chances
j e n n x2 85: good one
j e n n x2 85: but part B doesnt work for me
j e n n x2 85: sometiems you just know that you would never work with that person
JSD00638: Because you carry around that preconcieved notion
j e n n x2 85: not necessaly
JSD00638: people like qualities not type
j e n n x2 85: true

argh! why soo complicated julius! haha!

maan i'm hella lazy x10000000000....midterms and senior weekend wore me out. but anyways..i watched "Better Luck Tomorrow" today...that all ASAIN cast film that MTV is endorsing. its only in select cities right now...but yea..it was weird. apparently its based on a true story that happened at a high school a guy on my floor went to. pretty weird...see it if you can guys...support the film and asian actors! also one of the guys in the movie graduated from Berkeley..cool stuff. ok thats it. the end. peace ;>

SENIOR WEEKEND

ok..its gonna be a long one guys! but what can i say? it was a great weekend! ;>

Thursday: had our last volleyball game..we had a blast! kinda sad its over. then i picked up my seniors..IRIS (locso) and CHRISTINE from hilltop..yaaay! from san diego...wha wha! you guys are the best! we checked out the open mic and it was cool..then KIM took over the rest of the night so i could finish studying for my midterm. when they got back all the senior folks chilled in our room...pretty cool shit..cause ya know the party is always up in 706! haha..riiight...so we were up pretty late talkin and all of that good stuff. i gave my seniors the beds and i took the floor.

FRIDAY:BEAUTIFUL DAY!, took my midterm at 9 and turned in my essay..thank GOD! so i was hella tired from my whole week of studying and late nights up. missed the carnival cause i had to prepare for the cultural workshops. sucks...facillitating the workshop was pretty cool. too bad our video wasnt working, so i took over and opened a discussion about "growing up pilipino in america" the guys liked it..aww i felt soo cool. then with the little time i had...i tried to spend time with my seniors and took them to get some CAL gear. that was a good 15 minutes before i had to leave them with kim again so i could set up for banquet. it felt like ASB again! aww...memories. it was cool and hella nice. then did registration for the kids and took their pics and cleaned up the darn place cause i couldnt go on the scavenger hunt in SF...i was EXHAUSTED! i heard it was fun though. but luckily that 2 hours they were gone i was able to take a nap. haha...when they got back they did their skits..soo cute! and then we took them to clar kerr to chill and whatever. got drunk off capri sun. haha...i think we were having more fun than they were. got back 3:30 and slept at 5. the two nights they were here my floor just had to be drunk! ya know? oh well..thats college life fo ya!

SATURDAY: after 3 hours of sleep..woke up to rain! suuuucks up the boootay! got ready to check in their stuff and have breakfast and closing stuff. it was CAL DAY..so we checked out the campus in the pouring rain to get free stuff. got soo wet! then took them to the super dc...which they loved! haha..so yea. didnt get to do all the things we wanted cause of the rain :*( they had to be back by 2 to board the bus..so yea..that was a sad moment...aww...but before we left i told iris to tell the guy we thought was cute to tell him..haha..they ended up exchanging SN's and numbers...HAAAAAeeeeeeeYYYYY! haha..ive trained her well.. sike...but yea...watched them board the bus and stood in the rain till it left. maan..im gonna miss them. I HAD SOO MUCH FUN! and i'm soo glad i had COOL SENIORS! though didnt get to do all the stuff i had planned..F'N rain! i hope they come to berkeley! after all the seniors left i slept for 4 straight hours and got up at 8 to eat homestyle dinner with the folks..fun stuff! ok too long...peace!

EXHAUSTED

so the past week or so i've been up til like 3-4 in the morning studying for this damn midterm and revising my essay over and over...and over again. maan..can't wait til 12 on Friday when i'm freeeeeee....freeeee at last! haha..ok well yea..not much goin on. im too excited for senior weekend...yeeees...we gonna have so much fun! alright ya'll...peace and no adobo grease cause thats just sick ; p

to eileen...aww..cool! i feel so loved! haha..good to know i have readers out there ;>

all weekend in the dorms...

yup! you read that right..haha...friday-sunday i stayed in my dorm reading and what not. didnt' even hang out with anyone at all. WOW..haha. weird. but it's good cause i got work done. not bad at all...so i'm trying to finish my essay and study for my midterm thats all on friday so i can party hardy with the seniors for SENIOR WEEKEND...yes! (PASS and other recruitement centers fly folks that were admitted to Cal for free to spend a weekend here and check out the school) they'll be here thursday night to saturday afternoon and i'm soo soo very excited! i remember last year when i flew up here with DIANNE for senior weekend and we were roomates with SHERLYN...maan, we were such punks! all anti-social cause we thought..or i thought, i wasn't goin to berkeley. LOL..and cyn was hella like, "i remember you last year and you looked like a snob sitting at the table." haha..i admit, i was shy and didnt talk to anyone. but yea, that was hella fun and basically my deciding factor in choosing Berkeley..so i hope the same happens to all the seniors coming up this weekend. ok thats it...peace and goodnight ;>

EH..BLEH..it's NOTHING...
"LONELY GIRL"-pink

WHY ME?! gosh..i hate how i'm feeling again. geez..PMS! it has to be. i'm just soo...sooo...I DONT KNOW! haha..like that made any sense. all these damn emotions..too much to deal with...anger for no reason, fustration, stress...worrying about what's gonna happen next or in the future. i'm tired having this PANIC feeling..like, i get soo scared that i'm gonna fail...and not just classes or whatever. but JUST LIFE..ya know? SIGH..i just feel like im losing myself. i used to be soo carefree and happy and CONFIDENT. now i'm just so conscious about everything. i dont' feel like anything anymore...i feel soo fake and like a hipocrite..not to mention one of the biggest asses in the world. I'M SO TIRED. home on a FRIDAY night, and believe it or not, i'm enojoying it. just wanna sit on my bed and think..ANALYZE everything goin on and how i'm feeling. yup...like the good ol' days in my room. maan, i dont' even have a room anymore. i'm back to sharing with my sister. too much thinking is not good though...definetly. umm yea...whatever. : /

anyways..watched "bowling for columbine" today cause sherlyn downloaded it. it was very sad and emotional and thought provoking. i dont understand why people result to hurting other people. dumb fCKS! also, joyce told me that she's scared of me. haha...maan, once again, JENN the INTIMIDATOR..argh. i need to learn how to "look nice"..thats my new goal.

i wonder...a lot..and I HATE IT! go away, please!

sorry, i just realized what drama this entry is...oh well...it's a blog..what do you expect?

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!

EH..whatever. april is gonna be one stressin month..too much goin on. school, pcn, senior weekend, blah blah...i just hope i can cope with all this. i plan to stay home and do homework on weekends so i can participate and help out with all these events.
everyone is campaigning right now for ASUC (student government)...some hardcore stuff goin on. its pretty exciting seeing all the sidewalks chalked up and people holding up signs.
my sister told me today that someone scratched the back of my car..or probably hit it with something. WTF?! geeez...people have no decency (sp?) these days! arrrrghx100! my baby is hurt!
my wisdom tooth is starting to grow out and i can feel it. it hurts sometimes..BOOOOO! : /

why does being light skinned symbolize beauty?
sad..but true. most of us define beauty by the the color of our skin. we discussed this today in Asian Am. why are we all afraid of getting dark? ya know..stayin in the shade, using umbrellas, etc..basically we avoid the sun because we dont wanna get dark. and then we use skin whitenning products to make us even lighter. i admit, i'm one of these skin color conscious people. i be usin my papaya soap like no other! we shouldn't define beauty by the shade of our skin..brown is beautiful! riiight...so why can't we all get over it? hmm....