its a different kind of pain...now i know what it feels like and i DONT like it : (

"it's nothing"

its unusually hot in berkeley lately...

we finally went grocery shopping, settled for albertsons since the comissary is too far. spent $166!! but then i guess the casheir heard us gasp and gave us an extra 5% off.....thank God! and thank God for the albertson's card too cause it saved us an extra 70 bucks! ok...that may have been boring to you guys but to me its a big deal cause shiiii....we've spent the last two weeks surviving on one meal a day! apartment life is tough...seriously.

last night made some pancit palabok! it looked soo pretty...i felt proud.

alright....boring entry, peace out!

i need a vent session. solitude...its a good thing sometimes

so everyone just left for the PCN afterparty. the "pre-party" was actually at our place and we got a call from the manager, whatever though cause we're not staying here next year....the party looks like fun. i dont know why i decided not to go. oh well...its rare that i get some time to myself. hmmm....

:inhale, exhale:

right now im feeling things i DONT want to feel and thinking things i DONT want to think....i have a feeling karma is gonna hit me soon. God works things out in his own way...i trust in him...

i wanna be saved

i forgot....R.I.P. Fish 2/8/03 - 4/16/04

i loved that fish. i remember in the dorms i was the only one who fed it, cleaned its water, and played with it. i loved sitting in front of the bowl and watching him swim. he was a strong one...went a whole week without food cause we all forgot about him during spring break...survived the beer incident when someone poured beer into the fish bowl at a party...he was the last one swimming out of the 13 fish we started with. he even survived jimmy as his caretaker since i couldnt bring him home to sd with me for the summer. poor guy....thanks jimmy though for takin over him ever since. SIGH...i want a new pet now.

seriously the weekend of NO SLEEP

senior weekend was fun..roel got assigned a girl so they just stayed at my place with my senior...theyre soo cute! we had soo much fun showing them around berkeley and taking them places. they even were clever enough to sneak off and buy roel and i a gift. so one of them is coming for sure and the other is still debating...but before she left she said she was going to miss berkeley. i have a feeling im gonna see her this fall. we got all sad when they left saturday :(

new found craving....nations pies! nations is a burger place thats open 24/7 and dude, tell me why it was packed as heck when we went at 3 in the morning?? we waited like 30 min for food. but theyre pies are really good, kinda like marie callenders. after the seniors left we went back and got more pies and guess what? the place was empty and it was around 8ish..freakin weird.

saturday night roel had kill bill vol. 1 but i fell asleep so i didnt watch it, having only 4 hours of sleep knocked me out by 11. pcn was the next day...that was serisously a great show. all the skits were emotionally moving. i hella teared on the skit about depression...afterwards we ate out at thai house and had some BOMBass food.i swear at church EVERYONE was sleeping...so of course we got home and crashed soo hard, felt good ;>

i really dont know what to do anymore....

thank God for the little things in life that can turn a frown upside down in a second

i just wanna say i hate school...or better yet school hates me :( but just cause school and i aren't getting along doesnt mean im going to give up.........NEVER

and one more thing....fck all the mofos who get above the mean when they started studying the day before or even no studying at all.........fckers!!! why didnt they just go to standford or yale? some people are soo lucky they have it easy with school, im jealous.

definetly what i needed! the past two days have been freakin chiiiiil. FRIDAY i found 20 bucks on the ground....yeeeeeeeees! but i shared the wealth and bought sushi for everyone. sherlyn, norman, roel and i played raquetball at the rsf and that was hella fun. even if we had no plans that night it felt sooo good just stiting around. we ended up making a quick candy run to walgreens and watching pirates of the caribbean. saturday i acutally got to wake up passed 8 o clock....havent done that in soo long. then again with no plans....sherlyn and i dyed our hairs....hahaha. it was sherlyn's first time and it turned out good. my hair is kind of a dark burgundy/red but i like it. then after a late brunch at 3, we both took a long ass nap. haha...at least we did our laundry! chris and aaron invited us to go watch hell boy with them but we wanted to watch prince and me so we asked angelo to take us and he did ; > very cute movie. then everyone came over to our place and we actually started drinking like at 1 am....stayed up loud as heck til 4 and didnt get in trouble. thats some record for us. muahahah...


happy easter ya'll....i need to do some homework now, so paaaaaaaayce!

tah freakin daaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!
i survived and oh yes it feels goooooooood! ; >

upcoming weeks are gonna be fun...

pressure. anxiety. fear. im going INSANE...my heart's beating too fast. i need to compose myself.

ready or not....here we go.. : /

definetly the worse week/weekend of my life.......

first of all, why do science classes always gotta have their midterms around the same time? its just askin for failure! i have ochem on monday and physics on wednesday....geeeeeeeeez...not good. so ive been studying since spring break actually and i still dont feel confident at all. then again....do i ever?? argh, the torture of it all!

susan came up for her spring break. i feel bad cause i cant really kick it with her cause of my midterms. she's been sleeping here at my place though and spending time with bev. sooo....kanye west was suppose to be here on campus today doing a meet and greet with young gunz. but i wasnt gonna go since i had a mock midterm. turns out kanye couldnt make it and the thousands of people who lined up early in the morning just left. leaving less than 100 people waiting to meet young gunz, who ended up arriving 2 hours late. DUMB! i feel bad for them...hahaa. i didnt get an autograph since everyone else was in front of the line and i wasnt bout to cut people who really wanted to see him. whatevs though....i got to see malik from real world! yaay....my goal was met! i saw everyone from real world/road rules who went to berkeley ; )

bleh....more studying needed...peace.

ps...11 months ; >