good GIRLS finish last

i think that saying goes both ways...yea? well i think so.

whatta weekend. good times with sherlyn, jo, chandra, tricia, and barbra on friday night. who has a midterm monday?? haha. it was a big vent session for all of us. yelling back and forth and laughing at each others' drunken comments. we should do this more often. every girl needs that space to yell on top of their lungs.

sherlyn and i are such great hosts/friends. we're both in bed and hear chandra yakking in the bathroom....im thinking, "sherlyn get up and help her cause im already on my top bunk and cant get down." i bet she was thinking the same thing cause neither of us got out of bed. hahhaha...sorry!

the story of my life..."i dont deserve you. you deserve better." my interpretation, "maybe im not good enough."

ghostofagoodthing.dashboard

no one (you) has a clue

someone up there must really DISlike me.

i wish life had a restart button. better yet, eject me, blow me, and make me as good as new...even if its only temporary.

and the waves came crashing...

ON MY FACE!

feelin sooo emooooooo

in need of a GOOD cry. (but have no one to cry to.)

my plate is overloaded: school, family, and you (i wish i could just scrape some of this crap in the trash like i do with my leftovers. horrible, i know.)

instead, here's a great big :SIGH:

(please excuse me for a couple days)

"SUNDAY DRIVE"

And we wait above a road.
We're turning to go home.
And the silence from the side of the cartells me everything and how we are.
'Cause there's no more trying to make this so right,
There's no more trying tonight.

{Chorus}And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone.And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.

I know something is wrong,
I just dont know what to do.
You say it's only me and that I'm so perfect for you.
I don't want to try no more, I dont want to make this right.
I just want you to be true with me, one time.

{Chorus}And you know it's not so easy when you're all alone.And I wonder if I'm alone in your head.

Twelve days gone by since I have saw you last.
I'll give this one more try, I'll give it all my best.
And I'll ask "What could you be doing that is so much funwithout me by your side, without me by your side?
"And I'll take a step back, and I'll let you ahead.
And I will take a step away and see if you come back.
Because there's no more trying to make this so right,
there's no more trying,
there's no more trying tonight.
We will never be the same.
We will never be the same until you're done.


my parents 10 minute visit was worthwhile. got some presents: pan de sal and a red bag courtesy of my sister, and of course green in my wallet....mucho gracias!

hot weather makes me happy.

ellen's goin away party was fun.....her turtle is humongo. cant wait to see baby love's potential...
in 8 years or so.

midterms.you already know how i feel about them :/

two wrongs can NEVER make a right. we're broken.

i can't believe how this week just flew right by me. oh lord...here's to a weekend with my head in the books. my parents have to be in san jose this weekend for something, hope they'll have time to stop by :crossing fingers: i need some morale right about now. i think about them, and then my eyes swell up with tears. ok, i better stop before i start crying in the library. next subject:

complaints:
-its been sandwiches galore for me. breakfast, snack, lunch. i should decrease my intake before i get tired of it and have to find a new food to attach myself to.
-cheese slices are too thick. why dont they have thin slices like they do of meat?
-why must couples feel the need to make out in public? they part their ways as if theyre not gonna see the other person for months. its a of couple hours fckers, deal with it.
-there's no such thing as dumb questions....or is there?? "will the organism be hungry enough to feed twice so that each partner will be able to watch a feeding up close?"

haha...maybe i have some hidden anger in me or something......OR maybe im not the same person anymore?? well, soooooooooooooooooooooooorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrry!

sensitive.emotional.vulernable.quiet.sarcastic.stubborn.critical.hipocrite.andalloftheABOVE.

love it or leave it. thank you.

DoSomething!.(pregO) britneyspears

SAAAILING, takes me away to where ive always heard it could be...

exactly :) a weekend of goodtimes for damn sure, or even "sherlyn filled weekend" if you'd like. soo many things planned, and the only thing that didnt pull through was the one thing we've been waiting to do since last summer: swimming....maybe next time.

thank God for the gorgeous weather that made it 10x better. we started Friday with a shopping spree in SF @ nordstroms and did some damage to our credit cards. i dont even think we stopped to rest our feet. sales are evil. how did we end our friday night? with the book party at barnes and nobles for the premiere of the new harry potter. when it struck midnight, kids yelled, "potter! potter!" oh lord it was nuts. i enjoyed looking at the childrens books and remembering the stories our teacher would read to us in elementary, even though i always messed around or fell asleep during those times..haha.

saturday...got all dressed in sun screen and my bathing suit waiting for sherlyn to get home. instead the cable guy came late and somehow ended up giving me his number and asking me out??? now i understand why my mom never wanted me to be home alone with the construction workers. so swimming was scratched out and we decided to go grocery shopping...oh maan, these times i wish i had a car. i love my food. that night we all went to ernesto's party to drink and be merry with karaoke. the walk home was funny.

on sunday, i finally went SAILING! ive been wanting to do this foreeever. great date with sherlyn and chandra. our skipper was nuts. he was the harriest man ever...i mean ever! arms, back, neck, eeerythang. we shared our boat with a professor from berkeley. weird. it was soo pretty, i dont think any of us stopped smiling for the good half hour(?) we were out on the water. i loved it.

now it all ends and back to reality. boo.

exhausted

there's something up with this week...been more tired than usual. missed my alarm yesterday and woke up at 7:30 for an 8am class. then today, i woke up to chris' 7am alarm rather than my 6:45 alarm. oh lord, give me some rest.

summer school is officially half-way done, meaning midterms for the next 4 weeks. bummer.

went with tricia, jo, and chandra last night to blakes to catch an asian-american band called BENTO...seriously check em out! theyre great. bentomusic.com
i sooo coulda walked home by myself but tricia and chris insisted that he pick me up. (thanks for caring!) i thought it was more freaky walking chandra home than it was walking to my place, i hate southside. but i am lovin the girl talk with these girls :)

lately i find myself being greeted by strangers as i walk by on the street...kinda nice.

maaaan, i wanna nap!

grey clouds?

only over my head :( i locked myself in roel's room for two days to study, NOTcram, but STUDY, for this midterm. even got up early this morning and spent 3 hours prior to my midterm sitting in front of the university library with my bianca mocha at hand reviewing over and over again. hope it pays off...i hate midterms. we should start a petition to ban them from schools.

while sitting there, this guy is talking on his cell phone like no other pacing back and forth 2 feet in front of my bench like he was someone important. each time i look at him and give him the look of death. he didnt get the picture. i chose to keep my cool.

im soooooooooooooooo gonna drink this weekend.

"There is no wisdom greater than kindness"-my fortune cookie

so very true. keep your mouth shut and just smile, even if its fake!

watched fantastic four last night....could have been waaaaaaaaaay better. but it was still cool. also had the closest thing to a REAL carne asada burrito in the bay, and the damn thing was called a quesedilla...weird.

this song is in my head:
INDEPENDANTWOMEN.destinyschild

tell me.....why, myspace is acting up and its pissing the hell out of me. goes to show how much i am dependant on that thing for a mere five minutes worth of entertainment and down time which some how ends up into an hour of wasted time. pitiful.

instead, im writing in this blog.

i <3 this blog

i think im addicted to this thing. im posting EVERYdamnDAY. its good for venting though....or actually, good for conversations with myself. sometimes i have no one to talk to, except for myself. heh, that sounded like loser status.




I got this link of my cousin's blog:


http://postsecret.blogspot.com/

check it out....people anonymously create postcards that tell their secrets and post them online.

i read through ALL of them in one sitting. there's some crazy shit out there!



my reactions are the result of your actions
a secret revealed:
http://photos1.blogger.com/img/296/2612/1024/love.jpg

Happy 4th of July

today was a fun day.

bbq, friends, water balloon fight, fireworks on the roof...and a firecracker popsicle :)

new things are great :)

despite having a midterm coming up on thursday, i decided to do something different and enjoy a sunny saturday out...(totally out of character, i know, no need to further point that out.) i headed out to the batting cages with some good folks. again, something i wouldnt have done on my own. and surprisingly it was fun. didnt know standing around and swinging a bat would make me sore though. we worked ourselves up an appetite and released our hunger at Buffet City. reminded me of East Buffet on miramar road....lovin the crab legs and oyster. but i think the oyster gave me a little tummy ache :(

sometimes people are quick to make comments about me....please dont, i think ive grown a little sensitive.

"If you kiss me then Ill kiss you back"-digital underground

interesting...

-saw a girl get caught up for shoplifting

-gave a bum a dollar (good deed of the day)

-saw a guy get caught up for a fake id

-luther vandross dead? thats soo sad.

been feeling kinda....nostalgic lately. all this talk about senior year coming up makes me remember how good freshman year was...and how crappy my high school years were. bleh. i miss a lot of things...carefree days, drama free days, laughing all day. talking on the phone til wee hours of the morning. i wanna get back to that.

girls are evil bitches (most). they dont care that guys have girlfriends. stOOOOpid. haha, i'm one to talk though :x HEY, at least i can admit it. (agree or disagree with me on this statement, but ya know there is some truth to it)


i wanna fly a kite. the pretty big ones with long tails and colors everywhere.

handsdown.dashboardconfessionals

"fckn SHIT"

on my way to class:

i see a guy standing in the shade with his puppy, and i as i walk by, "i think damn, it smells like shit." i turn around and see some poop on the floor.

the whole way to class, the smell kinda lingers...didnt think much of it.

i get to class, sit down, and say aloud, "it smells like shit in here!"

then it occurs to me, "puppy, poop, DUH."

i look under my slipper, and BAM!

errrrrrrrrrrrrrr >:0