pretty weird day...i had so many mixed feelings...first i woke up on this last day of classes for the semester oh SO HAPPY! wow..can't believe its almost over...but yea..it's real cool how everyone claps for the professor at the end. haha..ok..so anyways..get back to my dorm after lunch at GBC and start to clean out my drawers and stuff....tryin to be productive...oh yea, i saw my kuya for the first time in a long while while crossing the street..haha we stopped in the middle to hug each other. i miss hangin and laughing with him. i guess we're all too busy these days. but yea...i was soo bored so i just watched some TV and chilled by myself since everyone was at classes still....but then sarah came and we had a good talk about stuff..life, school, she's soo cool. i love that girl...then lora comes in saying that my parents bought me one of those "FINAL SURVIVAL KITS"..haha...that hella took me by surprise cause you know how pilipinos aren't really into buying that shit...but yea..so i go pick it up and i start to tear...my mom and brother wrote a little note...(its word for word)

"hello-darius obaña"
"Dear jenn, good luck to your final exams. take extra time to study, reading is the key to success. we know you can do it. we love you. dad,mom,christine, edwin, and dariius"

maan that made me tear just re-writitng it and even everytime i read it...why am i so sad? cause...geez...school is one TOUGH BITCH! i CAN'T dissappoint my parents...i just cant..it's soo fustrating that i have to tell them that i'm having trouble in school...maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!!!!! that brought me down...

but anyways..today was the last PAA meeting..we had halo halo and played a bunch of games, kinda like a tournament with all the classes..taboo, connect four, and even saved by the bell trivia...i didnt know such a game exists! haha...so that was lots of fun. then back at the dorm..i chatted with the girls..gossip like we always do...talk about guys and how we're lonely up here...haha...well me and esther at least. but yea..then we got all excited cause we wanted to dye our hairs...maaan i was soo down! but then everyone was like..." no you have nice hair..blah blah..." so i chickened out AGAIN! geez...i soo need a change. i have to look more college-like. for sure i gotta cut my hair winter break...but we'll see...i might change my mind again. haha...ok, anyways..spent a while taken pics with earl for the website...haha maan they're soo funny! THEN.. esther and i talk about guys AGAIN...gets us hella down cause we're soo loneley...maan....why are all the good ones taken here?! ; / there's only soo many guys at CAL! so now i'm all sad or not sad cause i dont really NEED anyone....but yea...i dont know...so thats why i decided to blog...BLEH! and i plus im homesick again cause of my parents...maan i just wanna sit at home again with the family and do nothing...