No More 2004

here it goes, my annual yearly reflection. let me break it down to you/me:

Berkeley: am i getting tired of this place yet? nah, i think its just the food. i pretty much spent the whole 04' up in berk doing the school thing. moved out of our "hole in the wall" apartment at the Gaia and across the street to the fabuloso Allston Lofts (formerly named Pioneer Apartments). im lovin the new place. got folks right below us and folks on the 4th floor to borrow milk, eggs, and have dinner parties every now and then. good stuff.

School: last semester of sophomore year knocked me to the ground, kicked my ass, dragged me a mile, then kicked me some more. i let pessimism, depression, and anxiety take over my life. that was the worse semester of my freakin life. even now, when i think about how much i let my worst fears take over me, i get a little emotional. NEVER again. promise. Summer school all summer allowed me recuperate and revamp myself. First semester third year...a great one. New attitudes, studying techniques, and hours in the VLSB library helped me succeed. Dont recall a single breakdown. snaps to myself. the journey is almost over...gotta make it a good one!

Friends: the ALC crew brings nothing but good times and endless laughs. seriously. im glad to have this second family right in my apartment building. the roommates....ahhh, what can i say? ive had the best times with you guys! we have so much fun just laughing every day. Mari, just wanna say sorry for the way things ended. wish things could have been better, but im glad we can still remain friends. kay ann...the new roomie! hope youre not sick of us. but i know youre have fun. the spontaneous, crazy moments...hahaha. who else congregates every night in the kitchen to take a break from the books and talk over a hot cup of tea because sherlyn made some? i love it! not to mention there's free shows every week within the ALC...muahahaha! how bout we cut it down for 2005?

Family: aahhhhh! i cant believe how old we all are! all my little cousins/brothers have g/fs and b/fs...wtf?! little patricia is now in college, and im actually old enough to go to bars with my cousins?! sometimes i wish i could rewind back to the days of sleepovers and playing school. my parents are getting older. my dad seems lonlier. he likes to feed the stray cats that hang out in our backyard. and my mom still continues to say random things that crack us up.

Love/Relationships: Spent the first half of the year IN love. things were perfect...maybe a little too perfect? yes, i think so. had my first one-year anniversary in may. it was wonderful?? not for long, we broke up a month later. spent the second half of the year trying to fall OUT of love. why is it that we started fighing AFTER the breakup? why did the process of getting over someone hurt MORE than the day we ended things? why did i let myself get hurt over and over again by the same person? i think i lost a piece or two of my heart. so whats my current take on love? Fourth time's a charm?? haha...or maybe its back to the "stupid boys, stupid boys" mentality? we'll see what Venus has in store for me. "love is a battlefield"

Highlights:
1) turning the big 2-1
2) getting my braces off (after 3 1/2 years! shiiiiet!)
3) moving into the ALC
4) being on PAHC core....greatest bunch of girls ever. feels good to be involved in the community again.

Resolutions:
1) GAIN the freshman 15 all over again
2) build a stronger heart
3) LIVE LIFE

soo....peace out 04' and bring it on 05' ;>

HAPPY NEW YEAR!