in need of a remedy

its been quite eventful the past days....emotional, frustrating, fun, and all of the above.

-funding for our annual benefit concert has been frustrating...i feel helpless in trying to help our impoverished people in the philippines. endless meetings, efforts, and struggles. things have been looking better though... :crossing fingers:

-filipino empowerment day...why did it seem it was more for the college students than for the high schoolers? berkeley, davis, santa cruz....it doesnt matter guys.

-ice skating with PAHC was the time of my life. who else makes the ice skating rink into a dance club while doing the electric slide in the middle of the ice? the filipinos of course.

-EMOTIONS, feelings, ANGER run uncontrollably wild this weekend. i cried like i never did before, i yelled like it was nobody's business, i ran away...to find what ive needed all along. to realize I was the one hurting myself by letting you get to me. you shut me out, something i never have, NOR would have done to you. would i take the email back? probably not, i had to say it, even if it was out of anger. i was sooo upset, so frustrated with myself, trapped in a world that was not me. what am i supposed to do? learn to deal with it...how? im still figuring it out, even 6 months later. trust...i think we lost that in each other a long time ago. can we ever gain it back? time...something we never let each other have completely. better late than never. ive got good, no, wonderful friends. thanks. hope you enjoyed the show :) who's next?

-re-prioritizing.