maan...midterms killed my high! ;*( gosh....i remember the days when i used to be soo smart...back in high school, things were soo easy for me. i barely studied and got my A's one after another...in berkeley i STUDY MY ASS OFF and cant even get the grades to show for it... WTF?! daaamn...i hate college. i wanna go back to the simple days of morse high. even if things didnt seem so simple back then...i'd give anything to regain the feeling of an "A"....ahhh yess...the feeling of being smart again. i feel like such a dumbass at berkeley...! grrr...what am i doin here?! i wanna sue the idiot who admitted me! yea yea..i know, i can't be soo pessimistic...but what am i suppose to think?! i'm at a low again...cryin my eyes out...why is college soo hard for me?! did i lose half my brain over the summer? i don't know...

i called my sister today ballin...maan...she was a big help though...made me look on the brighter side of things...thanks big sis! dang..she's so nice to me...i have to be nicer to her, or at least try not to bug her purposely...haha...i cried to my dad too...gosh..im such a disppointment...i'm soo sorry..

..on a higher note, i got tickets to the screening of "8 miles"..yea!! (fake happy...)