my first blog..well acutally i have my first one...but that's for private use that no one reads...except for one person. this one is for everyone's eyes...well whoever's bored. hmm...life sucks right now. or well, just school actually. i hate college...i seriously don't think its MY thing...its soo hard. i'm not used to C's..i know its tough for everyone at first, but i don't think i can handle it. it's not like i'm out partying or anything. i mean, come on now, its berkeley! everything is 10x more competetive. sometimes i just wish i went to UCSD...i'd be closer to my family and have my car. but..i had to please my parents and make them proud. hopefully i still can. i mean, my mom is already making graduation plans for everyone to come up here! wow..talk about pressure. anyways..berkeley's boring to me...or maybe i just keep thinking pessimistic about it. i just wish i had my car...the love of my life! okay..i'm goin into non-sense right now...i'm bored. i miss my family..i hope i don't get into homesick mode again!

oh yea...haven't talk to john in forever..oh well, i guess he's happy now...finally. good for them. there's no surprise there. he's soo weak..always takin the easy way out. whatever..i'm moving on. i just wished i had someone to move on to...berkeley is high and dry in the dating area! why are all cute ones waaay older?!